Tuesday, July 24, 2007

the rollercoaster ride


I’ve never been to Enchanted Kingdom, I have been to Star City and Ocean Park in HongKong, but i’ve never been to EK.

Ive never rode the rollercoaster too, ive never even tried to ride the pathetic
Zycloon loop in Star City, the nearest almost rollercoaster ride experience will be most probably the Raging River in Ocean Park and the Wild River in Star City, I’ve always wanted to ride the rollercoaster.


From now on I should be careful of what I wish for, you’ll never know u might get it in a split second, without you even knowing it.

The line to the ticket booth

So it started with text messages, conversations over the phone, sensible ones may I add, it was nice, it was smart talking, no boner teasing , no naughty saliva flowing SOPs, it was pure talk, two people getting to know each other, its like finding someone u think u know, while falling in line upon getting the tickets u’ve always wanted, after all it was your first time.

The tickets

So after several exchanges of nothing special but pure talk, aware of that growing (well I thought it was) “ATTRACTION” (or more than that), you both decided to meet, eager to know each other, you just bought the tickets, you’re almost there, waiting for your turn to be seated, waiting to be seated next to that someone you just found, a new found friend or more than that or maybe neither of both.

The seat

It was a two-seater rollercoaster, the type you see in cartoons, you can almost see the heart signs from the horizon, u know ur coming there, ur going to pass it for sure, sharing it with someone on your side, someone you like but ur not sure if he likes you, the mystery of the ride excites you, you try to stare at his eyes, but hes not that ready for you, maybe your moving fast or maybe its just that he's thinking too fast as well, aware of his instincts, aware of the signs he wants to see, is he scared like you, to ride that rollercoaster for the first time?, is he feeling the same way?, is he taking a risk as well if he will enjoy the ride?, did he really took a risk, well u’ll never know until the engine starts.

The ride

So the engine starts, slowly but surely u know its going to be fast, you try to relax, breathe heavily, and there it goes, the comfy straight line ride, the part where you just think that all is going well for this ride at all, its not that bad huh? Not at all for your first time, you then feel comfortable, well I guess only you but not that someone beside you, he was far away, he was too busy trusting his instincts, he’s there but his mind is elsewhere, or maybe not, ull never know until you get to the loop. The scariest yet exciting part of the ride. This is it!

The loop

You then feel some tension, your lungs is raising, its hard to breathe, you try to touch the rails of your seat, but I guess its too far to reach, you then ask him to hold you, this is what you were waiting for, you’ve always wanted to touch him, how would his hands fit into yours? But he resists, he then tells you “its too early”, you then became vulnerable, you became so small, you got embarrassed, maybe I was over reacting, you know its the loop part but how come, maybe I was just impulsive, maybe ur just too clingy, maybe ur just too mushy, maybe its just nerves, is it because of the ride or is it because of him? You don’t know! You’re not sure so you tried to enjoy the ride even if its already freaking you out.

The fall

As you feel butterflies in your stomach, you then felt like your slipping, you started to panic, you tried to get some help, you looked at him questioningly, you then asked him why? He then answers “I just don’t feel a spark, there’s no fondness” and there you go, falling from the loop, the risk you took paid off, your flying in the air, you looked at him, but I guess he was too far already, you wouldn’t know what he was thinking, it was instinct he said, and it was carelessness for you, next time fasten the seatbelt because it was not enough, your not good enough! He was up there, your just here, you’ll never know when you’ll see him again, I guess you will never will, he wouldn’t take the risk, he wouldn’t take the chance, after all it was instinct who told him so. Your nothing but a speck of false hope in that big word!

The catchers

You felt the ground, it was too fast, Joms was right! Now u know?!, You just wanted to be yourself, you don’t want to pretend, but there’s no spark, you were not that good enough, your just a speck to that big word!, your nothing compared to the other riders, your not that sensible, your not that hot, your not good looking or maybe because your just too conceited? But hey you will never know right?! You will never will! The ground feels soft, the ground feels like human, you then realized your being carried, you then saw your friends,

There was John telling you: “Diyosa ka! Isa siyang immortal! Tonta!”

Apollo: “Maybe your just too much for him to handle, Cute ka naman ah! Marami pang nakapila”

Nazi : “Tigilan mo yang kalandian na yan, mag videoke na lang tayo”

Tim:Red Box b to?! Join ako!”

Red: "There is someone out there that is better and who will love u more, m just here if u need me ok?"


And then u felt like you just found home, the ride was nice, maybe the next try will be better? The encouraging words help you, comforted you, you started to pick up yourself, faster than expected, you sat down in the corner "I think ill better wait till someone ask me again to ride that rollercoaster!"

So What’s Turismoboi’s good at then?

I guess, I can MOVE ON faster unlike no other gay guy in the Philippines can do

“I wanted to thank you for all of the nice conversations, I wish you luck, I actually prayed to God to help you find that someone your looking for, to continuously trust your instincts and never let them deceive you, maybe we’ll meet in another time, we don’t know, I tried to be friends and keep in touch but I guess it wasn’t that right, after all friendships sometimes do needs sparks as well, I guess…………..”

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