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Winner Takes It \All

2009-05-20T20:16:00.000-07:00

Ive been a fan of watching reality based tv shows and competitions. Its one of my guilty pleasures on my day to day life. Three reality shows has wrapped up its season , and I did followed these shows religiously all throughout the season, though i miss some of the episodes, nonetheless i could safely say, i am an avid follower.

First to end its season this year is The Amazing race season 14. From the very beginning, i always am rooting on the mother and son tandem of Margie and Luke, and fortunately they made it till the final three. However, deserving winners brother-sister team up of Tammy and Victor made in the end.

Second to take its curtain down is the finale of Survivor Tocatins : The Brazilian Highlands, my favorite TJ emerged victorious, this guy shows toughness and discipline all throughout the game. And the best thing he did in the show is when he choose Stephen to be with him in the finale over Erinn. If you look closely at it those of you who are following the show, it would seem to be easier for JT to win the million if he choose Erinn but he sticked to his closest ally in the end, but if its stephen who won the immunity, he will choose Erinn instead, a different view of the million, putting in the garbage bin his bromantic partnership with JT. Erinn tried to keep her place in the final two by trying to break JT’s trust to Stephen when the latter informed her that he would choose her over JT but it didnt matter to JT as the real warrior has a heart of his own. Congratulations James “JT” Thomas Jr.

And finally, earlier, the season 8 of the famed American Idol crowned its newest singing sensation Kris Allen. All throughout the season, Kris slowly but surely rises to fame, but Adam Lambert showed much stronger force with his originality and vocal prowess. In the end, its America that has the final say.

Tripper na Tunay

2009-05-06T16:51:00.000-07:00

Maraming nagsasabing “tripper” daw sila. Meron pa ngang nagsasabi na curious tripper. Hindi ko alam kung merong kaibahan dito. Sila ba iyung mga nakikitrip lang minsan pagkatapos na masatisfy ang curiosity ay hihinto na? Sila ba iyung mga kapanalig ng “just try everything once”? Malamang ay hindi. Masarap kaya makipag-trip. Kaya tanggalin na natin iyung mga adjectives na iyan dahil ang alam ko dalawang klase lang ang tripper. Iyung tunay at iyung huwad.

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Sinulog and Politics

2009-01-16T16:17:00.000-08:00

Pit Señor! It's Sinulog time once again. No plans going there because I am a anti-social person. Hates big crowds. I even don't like going to bars anymore. Been there once just for the experience. I'd prefer watching TV to see what's happenin. And speaking of what's happenin... I just notice on the tri-media (meaning TV, radio,and print) the advertisements of those ambitious politicians. Nagsulputan na parang kabute. Pa-greet-greet pa kuno but we all know na the motive. I coin it earlectioneering.

Here is an example.

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2009-01-16T05:40:00.000-08:00

Forty days and nights of rain...feels like we're in Noah's time
Can somebody explain this absence-of-sunshine phenomenon?
I don't think PAG-ASA did a good job. Call it poorcasting. They always blame amihan or northeast monsoon for the weather. C'mon, I am NOT satisfied. I've heard over the radio that there were strong winds as strong as typhoons. Yet they feel that this is "normal".

So move over Ernie Baron(+), Kim Atienza, and Mang Tanie. Ming Meows will seminar you. Watch and learn.

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The 3rd CR

2008-10-02T03:22:00.000-07:00

“There should be rest rooms exclusive for gays.” It’s 8 o’clock in the morning and I am hearing this from no other than the “Mo Twister”. Although I don’t have much proclivity towards this personality because of his unrelenting chauvinistic sensibilities, his silly ideas always trigger some neuron in my brain.

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A Doseful of Discrimination

2008-09-29T11:59:00.000-07:00

For the people, Filipino or not who were victims or currently victims of the judgemental egoistic racist world we live in. I just stood up for the rest of you who might have fallen and became numb with this unfair treatment of our race. For the filipino men and women who are helpless in defending themselves in the cruel nation they reside now, I know its hard to live away from home, always think that you are not alone and God is with you.

It has been a week or so when I arrived here in Singapore, and I must tell you that so far aside from being homesick the next thing that I hated most here is that british dumb girl who resides next door. (Dont get me wrong!, I dont have grudges for british people, in fact I love spice girls and george michael)

I never thought that I could be a victim of Racial Discrimination, (actually this is a mild one compared to others) let alone be bombarded by a camilla parker bowles wannabe and her bloody friends living a door away from our place. I have been to HongKong and USA before but luckily I have never experienced such barbaric treatment from the people there, so I was really surprised that finally I had a doseful of how cruel these white people can be and of all places in an asian country like Singapore. Discrimination can really happen anywhere even in our own country, (observe how government institutions treat foreigners than their own kind)

I remember one of my mom's friend telling her story about a posh store in Australia. Being the wife of a PAL pilot, she had the luxury of accompanying him into his travels and money was not a problem to her at all. (she's a bank manager.) This store is so posh that customers are so pampered, that they just sit and point whatever they would like to buy while they are being served with coffee and expensive luscious pastries. But when my mom's friend was about to do the same, white salesladies werent cooperating and even looked at her from head to toe like they just couldnt believe that a brown skinned girl like her can afford to buy stuff there. (reminds me of a particular scene in the movie Pretty Woman), In her utmost bratinella behaviour, my tita paid in cold cash instead of using credit card to show these people that she is indeed capable and they could just die in disbelief.

Moving forward, this irritating scenario happened to me earlier today.

This tranny looking girl made my blood boil like a hot lava inside a trembling volcano. Everytime I go home its hard not to cross her chit chatting entourage in front of their badly interior designed apartment. Whoever said neon orange work well with neon green and hot pink furniture must be really outdated, what are you trying to reside in this place, CIRCUS acrobats!, the pathetic crowd always manages to throw bloody rude remarks for me and my friends everytime we pass by. It was very wiseful and civilized to just ignore it at first but that hot afternoon was extra special that I just said that enough is enough.

Me and strawberry (my ex boyfriend's long time current girlfriend) just came from our little shopping in the nearby store when we walked towards their way and I heard tranny shit telling her "yes" crowd something about filipinoes and they were laughing that its so hard not to notice how evident they were making fun of strawberry and me. (a habit they have established for the past months according to my friends)

tranny: I just dont like filipinoes.

me: What makes you think filipinoes like you?

(strawberry was holding my shirt telling me to shut up and ignore them, but i just cant help it anymore, this time im not letting them bully us and we ran off our domain looking like a scared mice.)

Her crowd shut up and you can see their jaws dropping like they just couldnt believe that I can speak in english in an american accent way that it makes them wonder how I got it.

tranny: (stood up from her seat trying to intimidate me with her piercing eyes and towering height, she was taller than me about 6 ft i think) You know, why I hate filipinoes?, its because they eavesdrop on other people's conversations and YOU SMELL RUBBISH.

This is the part that I felt like im a volcano about to erupt. my nerves were shaking like theres intensity 7 there.

me: Well I suggest you stay away from us then, Do you know that there are 90 million filipinoes living today, and considering that we're almost everywhere in the world, thats a lot of hell you'll be dealing with?

tranny: I just dont care about you guys to give you much thought, lets go inside, let these poor asians whine all day.

me: scared already? (one eyebrow raising)

tranny: Not at all bloody filipino

me: trembling perhaps? (mean challenging look)

tranny: listen, ENGLISH SPEAKING BROWN MONKEY, I dont want to deal anything with you

me: then watch your mouth, because I may purr like a cat but I eat like a tiger

At that point, she left us and went inside her apartment, probably wondering what hit her, surprisingly one of her friends apologized to us and we just nod our heads for acknowledgement, i just hope this will be the last time her crowd makes fun of us, our race and other asians as well, because the next time I hear something foul coming from her garbage babblemouth, ill make sure she gets what she's looking for, I dont care if she's taller than me, i can punch like Manny Pacquiao.

For foreigners who will be reading this post, I sure do hope so that you understand that discriminating any race is not my cup of tea, we may talk with an accent but we dont think with an accent. we may have brown skin but we know how to work hard, dont think all asians are helpless and incompetent because were educated in a third world country, if you dont have anything good to say, then just shut up and be the citizen you are expected to be brought up by a mighty nation.

Mabuhay ang Pilipinas!

Gay Scene

2008-08-27T20:24:00.000-07:00

Browsing through the profiles in G4M, you would surely notice that there are guys who would claim that they are not into the “gay scene”. I am one of them. Is that for real? I could just imagine how the “straight” gays would take that claim. Why would I post a profile in a gay community site if I am not into the scene? I went to Bed once, thrice to Government and sometimes visit movie houses where gays cruise. Am I not into the gay scene?

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turismoboi

2008-08-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

how can i make access to your blog? pls... i miss ur blog, can't open them
here's my email

where the gay boys are....

2008-06-15T09:26:00.000-07:00

cat pics

2008-06-11T19:54:00.000-07:00

http://mingmeows.blogspot.com/

RELATIVITY

2008-05-31T22:56:00.000-07:00

“Conscience?”

She asked me, repeating the last word from my sentence.

“Yes, conscience. You don’t have any.”
“Don’t make me laughed. I was in the wrong place at the wrong time. I-I was just helping the stranger.”
“I wish I am, besides you’re not laughing.”

The time pressed on my skin, frozen.

“If my conscience is here with us tonight, you’re not still gonna be mine.”

The time now was accompanied by silence, it pressed too on my skin, bitter. I loosened my grip on her wrist. She grabbed her bag and fumbled for her mobile phone, after dialing a number she screamed, she cried, she begged, and then she cried again and screamed again for help to the person on the other end of the line.

“I like it when you cared for me. I feel I belong.”

I was not so sure if everything was said correctly. The mixture of my warmth breathes and cold breeze under the lamp post on this side of the park reminded me to save my energy and not to speak.

“You thought I didn’t hear you.” Laura sob.
“Funny. Oh please your dress—I mean I might stained it.”
“Funny? Hah we are not laughing.”
“I am sorry to mess your wedding and your whole night. Send my apology to Solo.”
“It’s okay he will understand.”
“Thanks”
“And I really appreaciate. I really do, that you were always there when I am blue and down.”
“Laura, what I don’t get is that I felt like Mussolini?”

She gave me the stare. Her very first stare when I met her, five years ago.

“Please don’t—"
“He said it seems that my tragic destiny that in all the important moments of my life I find myself..ahhh alone. That is so funny.”
“But Rad ….don’t make it hard for the two us.”
“Why are you here then?”
“You asked me to be here.”

Laura said the medics were close. She told me the sirens like shimmers. But I can’t hear anything anymore except her nearness; I can no longer feel the flow of blood on my chest emptying down to pavement except for her nearness; I could smell her scent and I know she was near.

That was all I need all this time, to be near.

Promotion Lang Po

2008-05-30T15:30:00.000-07:00

Hey guys pls visit my site. Parang awa nyo na... Hehe. www.mingmeows.blogspot.com

Trailer

2008-05-13T02:05:00.000-07:00

sino siya sa buhay ko (the guy in blue)?
abangan...

My Cats

2008-05-01T03:05:00.000-07:00

these are my cats Miming (/Mineew - white) and Muneew (black)

Non-sense Poems (Na Naman?)

2008-03-10T05:34:00.000-07:00

SUN, WHERE ART THOU?
As I wake up from my slumber
The darkness enveloped the sky
It was occupied by the nimbuses
Forming those shadows up high
I thought of those days
When the sun usually greets me
But instead there was sorrow
Endless teardrops falling from heaven
Sun, where art thou?
I've been longing for you
To give me heat and energy
Enlighten me along the way
Sun, please make this day your day

Non-sense Poems

2008-03-10T05:11:00.000-07:00

WAITING
Looking for some people around
Hoping that I may have found
Such a soul who will give in
And put an imprint on my surface
Through this rainy stormy weather
As I gather all my paraphernalia
Checking if nothing is missing
If all errors were vanished to oblivion
Making sure everything is alright
But suddenly you were not there
In times of my need, there was absence
I hate you and I want you to die

Korni Joke of the Day (K.J.O.D.)

2008-02-27T05:16:00.000-08:00

An old man looking at his prescription pad with the data NAME, AGE, SEX blah blah...
OM: "Six years old pala ako." (LoL)
Me: (Nakitawa na rin)

WoW ("words of wisdom") Quotes

2008-02-20T00:38:00.001-08:00

From my serious instructor:

"Planning is not the past tense, it is the future."

"You should know how to solve the formula.."

"Organizing is a verb."

"Who are the mother people here? You should inventory your yaya."

Overheard from a classmate:

"Mi Ultimo Adios means My Ultimate God."

the word "gay"

2008-02-01T21:52:00.000-08:00

The appropriate definition of gay is "a male who is attracted with the same gender".
But in our country, especially in the dominant conservative perspective, it would automatically refer to someone who acts effeminate. I know this is supposed to be wrong but in reality it happens. I think this is the reason why the self-declared bisexuals try to avoid the term.

The word "kikay" has changed its meaning. In post-war era, this used to refer to a flirty girl wearing thick make up and unfashionable/jologs-type outfit. But nowadays it would likely be linked with the term "sexy and fashionable".

I hope that this would also happen to the word "gay/bakla". If every PLU would have the guts to use this term, I think people will give due dignity to us if we ourselves would initiate such courageous move. There is power in unity but this wouldn't happen if we keep on bashing our race. World peace ; )

The war of chocolates

2008-01-11T23:46:00.000-08:00

Which is sweeter? Which is better?

Ferrero or Cadbury?

“Life is like a box of chocolates”

You will never know what you’re going to have unless you open it and try one of the chocolates.

He grabs the box, opens it, sees a Golden wrapped chocolate ball, it never fails to stand out amidst the variety of chocolate balls in the box.

A Ferrero Rocher is probably one of the most favorite chocolate of girls and boys alike, a chocolate ball wrapped in gold, its very tempting, very SEDUCTIVE, very rare, you will never find a chocolate other than Ferrero, the chocolate is sweet, makes you wonder where it came from, makes you think how such a chocolate exist, its too good to be true. One bite is not enough, it is so ADDICTIVE that you want more.

He grabs again another Ferrero ball in the box.

He enjoys eating a Ferrero, a Ferrero gives everything, he wants you to be HAPPY, he gives you LOVE and quality TIME that you’ve always complained about your past relationships. He gives you what he thinks is BEST for you. He gives you the right ATTENTION. He TICKLES your inner senses. He gives you his LIFE.

You eat a Ferrero and slowly taste the sweetness in your mouth, you wouldn’t swallow it unless you think it’s the right time. A Ferrero NEVER COMPLAINS, take me as I am, even if it’s my life, but Ferreros do die, after eating what’s next? There’s nothing left for a Ferrero, a golden wrapper in your hand, what do you do?

You flatten it, you see there were bits of chocolate left, you slowly lick them, a Ferrero leaves you traces, a Ferrero NEVER LEAVES YOU, he NEVER HANGS YOU IN MISERY, he always wanted closure, he makes sure that you’ll ask for more but what do you do after licking it.

You slowly crumple and throw it in the bin. Ferreros never complain, we never rant about it. We just took it as a sign, MAYBE WE DESERVE SOMEONE BETTER, MAYBE WE THOUGHT ITS YOU, BUT I GUESS NOT, we’re just a chocolate, WE’RE NOT GREAT LIKE WHAT WE THINK WE ARE. Sometimes when it comes to love, Ferreros are STUPID.

But you just can’t get enough of Ferrero, you open the box again, you see there is just one Ferrero left, but then you see another chocolate, the Cadbury. You decided to try it out, after all a FORGIVING and UNDERSTANDABLE Ferrero wouldn’t mind right? Trying out a different chocolate gives you VARIETY and SPICE IN YOUR LIFE. You have always been ADVENTUROUS and a Ferrero loved you for that. Even if you’re afraid of COMMITMENT, I have loved you for that. But even with all that effort you still decided to leave the Ferrero alone or maybe leave the last piece of him for now, Are you saving the best for last? I don’t know! Maybe you can tell me.

Cadbury comes in different forms, sometimes with raisin, sometimes with almonds and sometimes even both, the Cadbury comes in a plain bar but its FULL OF SURPRISES, it has always been, you feel like your 17 and then you stop and think, maybe a Ferrero at 23 is too old for you, a Cadbury bar is BIGGER AND TALLER, a Ferrero is a small ball, its not enough for your appetite. A Ferrero is never enough for you. A Cadbury bar also gives you everything, every bar has a surprise, sometimes you feel some raisins in it, its give you sweetness, it gives you that feeling that you want more and you just cant get enough, sometimes its just plain chocolate, I don’t know for certain what does it mean, but for some its like a DULL moment. and being a Ferrero lover myself, I definitely agree. But like a Ferrero, it gives you everything, he makes sure you always come back; he makes sure you will never look for another chocolate again.

I guess the Cadbury doesn’t know that there is a single Ferrero ball left in the box. It wasn’t his fault, YOU NEVER TOLD HIM, he’s too FAR to see how a Ferrero looks like. IF ONLY HE KNEW, he will never let you eat him, he will give you a bitter taste you’ll never imagine a chocolate can be capable of, Who knows what you’re going to do with the last Ferrero ball? Will you come back and love the chocolate again? Will you let him stay there until you finish the rest of the Cadbury? A REBOUND CHOCOLATE? Did you left him there to make him stay while you enjoy the other and come back to him when you get tired, SELFISH? I don’t know! Having the best of both worlds? YES!

Is the Ferrero waiting for you? I don’t know! Come what may, A Ferrero will never give you up, but a Ferrero will always be a chocolate, Chocolates are meant to be eaten. I hope that when you realize its time for another Ferrero experience. I hope ITS NOT TOO LATE, I hope it’s still there waiting for you and YOU BETTER HOPE that NO ONE hasn’t discovered your chocolate box and CHASED HIM AWAY. Because LEAVING ME HANGING THERE IS LIKE GIVING ME AWAY.

Post ng Tamad

2008-01-10T23:08:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year, guys!

It's been a year since my last post, and I'm thinking about resuscitating this "secret blog" of mine. I suppose 2007 has been exceptional for me in the sense that I was able to become more at ease with my sexuality. More friends have come to know the real me, and I am seriously considering having "the talk" with my parents real soon.

For now, I leave you with a borrowed post from a friend. I'm pretty sure that a lot of you can relate to this "tragic" love story

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"Unrequited Love"

All I ever wanted was to have a simple life: a loving husband, a couple of obedient kids, a comfortable home, and perhaps a dog. Scratch that. I don't want a dog. Active pets make domestic life more difficult than it has to be. I will probably just get a goldfish. Yeah, a goldfish or two would be good.

My first obstacle is, of course, finding the right man. At a ripe age of 25, I've never had a boyfriend. NBSB kumbaga. No Boyfriend Since Birth. Don't get me wrong. I am fairly attractive and quite a catch if I may say so myself. 5'5" in height, 110 lbs in weight. College graduate from a reputable school, and the bread winner of my family. I literally have the proverbial "long hair." I've had my fair share of suitors, but never found any of them suitable for me. I'd never say this out loud, but some of them are EWWW. They just don't do it for me.

That is, until I found him. The one.

Actually, I already knew him for quite some time, but it was only when I became his direct subordinate that my feelings flared up. Kind, outgoing, encouraging. I was in love. And I did everything imaginable (for a dalagang pilipina, that is) to make sure that my feelings were reciprocated. I tripled my efforts at work just for him to notice me more. I befriended his friends (yeah, even those who came straight from hell) just to get closer to him. I introduced him to my own friends and family members. I even started wearing skirts and other girlie outfits.

From the start, my friends discouraged me from falling for this guy. It was obvious, they said. He's gay. What the hell was I thinking falling in love with a gay guy? I will only end up being hurt or used. Just take a good look at him and his mannerisms. Even his friends tease him publicly, for crying out loud.

At first, I didn't listen. I didn't want to believe. I love him, how can he be gay? He looks so manly, how can he be gay? He used to have a girlfriend, how can he be gay? But all evidences appear to point to one conclusion: he may, indeed, be playing for the wrong team.

As I was convinced of his true orientation, my concept of reality began to alter. I tried to rationalize my feelings by telling myself that sex and intimacy do not really matter. What I am after is companionship and love. True love knows no boundaries, and a little thing like sexual attraction should not stand in the way of two people in love.

I wept. But I'm still hopeful. I need to have him. He is my only chance at happiness. It is a fight that I am not willing to give up.

The woes of unrequited love.

-- from http://buybuymo.multiply.com/journal/item/146

2008-01-10T18:11:00.000-08:00

Thanks for sharing and making 2007 the year for UNITED! We have a long way to go and to all who have posted, again, I thank you. :-)

2008-01-08T20:36:00.000-08:00

Ang Titi.

Titi ang tawag sa organ ng mga lalake. Iniiwasan mabigkas dahel ito ay bastos sa ating wika. Bastos dahel yun ang turo nang matatanda. Nakakahiyang sabihin. Immoral marineg ang salitang, Titi.

"Magtakip ka nang tenga, bastos yang saletang yan!"

"Oh my gosh, your so gross."

"Masusunog ka sa impyerno, manyak ka!"

Yan ang maririnig mo pag may nagbigkas ng saletang, Titi.

"Titi. Titi. Titi. Magsawa ka sa saletang ito. Hindi ako bastos. Hindi ako immoral." tugon ng Titi.

Titi.

Balik tayo sa salitang, Titi. Sanay na ba kayo marinig ang salitang, Titi? Hindi ba kayo nababagabag marinig ang salitang, Titi? Nababastusan pa ba kayo? Oo, mainitin ulo ko. Dahel hinde niyo ako iniintinde. May sarile akong pag-iisip. Liwas sa pag-iisep ng tao. Ako ang batas. Gagawen ko nais ko. At wala akong pinipiling tao. Magagalet ako kelan ko gustuhen. Maglalabas ako ng sama ng loob kahet ika'y mahimbing na natutulog. Wala kang magagawa kunde tanggapin kong anu ako.

Samakutuwid, nasagi sa isipan ko, mas makapangyarihan nga ang, Titi, kesa tao. May sarili itong utak. May sariling damdamin. May sariling nais. Nais na lagpas pa sa naiisip mong gawin. Nais na hinde mo kayang isipen. Isang misteryo. Isang palaisipang mahirap basagin.

"Kung yan ang katwiran mo, anung aspekto meron ka at tinagurian kang bastos?" tanong ng Mangmang

"Hinde ko alam." sagot ng Titi.

"Ipaliwanag mo sakin ang itsura mo." usisa ng Mangmang

"Iba-iba. Hinde ko man nakikilala ang ibang, Titi, alam kong iba-iba kami ng itsura. Gaya ng tao, kami'y natatangi. May malalaki. May maliliit. May tuwid. May baliko. May mataba. May payat. May balat. May binalatan. May Maputi. May Pink. May Brown. May Dark Brown. May Super Dark Brown. Sa amoy, may amoy rosas. Amoy Singkamas. Amoy bagong ligo. Walang amoy. Amoy tambutso. Amoy Kabayo."

"Nakakatawa ka naman pala eh! Di ka dapat tawaging bastos. Payaso pwede pa." hirit ng Mangmang

"Wala kang galang. Hinde mo lang ako tinawag na bastos, sinabihan mo pang katatatawanan ang, Titi. Hinde ba, minsan kayo ang lumuluhod sa amin. Kayo ang nag-aalaga sa amin. Kayo ang nagpapaligo sa amin. Sinusuyo niyo lang kami sa oras ng inyong pangangailangan. Pero masahol pala tingen niyo samen."

"Hinde ka lang nakakatawa, balat sibuyas ka pa. Pikon!" pangungutya ng Mangmang

"Sinong di mapipikon. Madali kaming masaktan. Konting bagay lang, nasasaktan na kami. Yung ulong nakalabas sa balat ng aming pagkatao, sapat na yon para sa isang kahihiyan. Para kaming mga walang saplot. Pero hinayaan namin yon. Masaket man, tiniis namin. Para daw di kami marungisan. Pero bawat sagi nito, kami'y kumikirot. Bawat ngipin. Bawat kuko. Lahat ng elemento, isinasagi niyo sa amin. Ipinapasok niyo kami sa madidilim na lugar. Mga lungga ng ihi, ng tae, ng dugo, ng tinga! Binababoy niyo kami."

"Andami mo palang hinanakit, bakit di ka magsaleta at i-voice out ang iyong hinaing." usisa ng Mangmang

"Dahel mahina ako. Titi lang ako. Makapangyarihan ngunit marupok." sagot ng Titi

Ang Titi.

Isang saleta na kung tutuusin binubuo lamang ng mga letra. Letra na walang malay sa binuo nitong saleta. Saletang iniiwasan. Saletang pinandidirihan. Saletang bastos. Saletang kanto. Saletang pwede bumuo ng pantasya. Pantasya na maherap burahin.

Ang Titi, ay isang responsibilidad na sa simula pa lamang, ay maherap panindigan. Maherap patayin. Lingid ito sa ating kapangyarihan, at ang tanging magagawa naten ay tanggapin.

Hinde natin maikukubli ang, Titi. Parte ito ng ating buhay. Ang Titi, ay buhay. Ang buhay, ay Titi.

Mabuhay ang Titi!

The Big Daddy In Me

2008-01-06T05:34:00.000-08:00

One time, while exchanging private messages with someone that turns out to be a minor in G4M:

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Me: Ay bata ka palang pala! Pwede ka ba alagaan? Joke!! Name ko talaga Joms, magkasing edad kami ni Gyminstructor. Nagkita kami sa BED sa malate. Gusto mo magkaroon ng idea kung paano magestablish ng blog?

Him: yup opo...gus2 q po..ah ok sa malate pla un bk8 d q alam un..ikaw n mgging tatay q?joke din.. (Kiddietalk Translation: gusto ko po. ah sa malate pala yun. bakit di ko alam yun. Ikaw na magiging tatay ko?)

Me: Haha. pinatawa mo ko dun ah. Sige ampunin kita ha! lol. Wala kang pasok ngayon?

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It all started a week ago. While browsing the forums in G4M, I noticed a young-looking member who posted at random threads in order to bring them up of the forum lists.

At first, I wasn't paying attention to his posts. But when I found out that the young-looking PLU is actually one of my friend's aquaintances, I immediately opened his profile to review it in hopes that I could find something that could serve as my opening line, if ever I decide to send him a private message.

His face is indeed very young - he is cute but I never aim for kids. His introduction is way too simple, it doesn't interest me either. However, one of his half-naked pic showed an abs muscles that are so flat, it instantly caught my attention. Immediately, I sent him a message asking his secrets to a flat tummy.

The simple introduction about the tummy lead to another, He told me about his sad life, his school activities and some things about his weird personality. As we exchanged messages the entire afternoon, the thought of the kid who asked me to become his "Kuya" back in elementary floated in my head. As the young guy in G4M began called me "dada," I responded 'nak' to acknowledge our newfound "cyber" relationship . It was very awkward at first, but eventually the little role-playing convinced me that I could stand up as his "virtual" big daddy in that website. I'm sure that since he grew up without his parents around, a little fatherly concern from someone much older than him might actually help in overcoming the transition from young adulthood to being a full adult homo guy he is passing through.

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Him: dada elow po..ay naku dada fri ngaun..kahapon pumasok aq sa skul ng 4 eh 3:30 class q dada tpos po ndi n nman aq nakkuwi ngaun fri po eh ngaun lang aq nakauwi ng umaga...uu dada..ingat k po.. (Kiddietalk Translation: dad hello po, ay naku, friday ngayon. kahapon pumasok ako sa school ng 4 eh 3:30 class ko. tapos, ngayon na lang ako nakauwi ng dorm kasi nakitulog ako sa bahay ng classmate ko. ingat ka po.)

Me: Hi anak. Nako, madalas ata ang overnight mo sa ibang bahay ah. Basta ingat ka lagi ha at wag mo pabayaan ang school mo. Hug nga kita.. xox O siya, ako naman ang papasok sa school. Na-add na kita sa friendster ko ha. Have a nice weekend!

Him: SALAMAT PO DADA....WOW BAIT NMAN TLGA NG DADA Q..INGAT K PO SA PAGPASOK....CGE PO OPEN Q MUNA FWENZTER Q....KAW DIN PO DADA HAVE A NICW WIKEND... (Kiddietalk Translation: Salamat po dad. Wow bait naman talaga ng dad ko. Ingat ka po sa pagpasok. Sige po, open ko muna friendster ko. Kaw din, have a nice weekend.)

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Funny how things turned out days after we started role playing. I'm not even sure how it would affect my general outlook in life, now that I'm beginning to feel responsible to some PLU very much younger than me. I don't know either the long-term effect of my start-up presence in this young kid's life.

But one thing is for sure though. Ever since the kid and I started talking that way, I became more concerned to some of my girl-friends who are also single parents as well. For some very very weird reasons, I feel like acting a fatherhood dream, I might never become in this life time.

Pity those who throw their seeds, only to abandon them in the end.

I swear, just one little seed from me. Just one little boy I could call junior someday...

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SMS Message:

Me: [Name of Ex Girl Crush], make sure, moti is protected ha! Uso ang dengue ngayon.

Her: Yes dad! Ehehehe, u. Tanks 4 reminding. I'll check on hm as soon I get home. tc.

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I could be more than most fathers I know.

I could even be greater than the man who brought me into this world.

Life Skills Na Munting Pangarap na Medyo Naughty

2007-12-27T02:23:00.000-08:00

Belly Dancing – Ito ay isang pangarap medyo mabigat matupad. Lalo na kung may katigasan ang balakang, tuhod, at marumi ang pusod. Oo marumi ang pusod ko, turn off no?. Kaya naman gusto kong matuto nito hindi para ma-conscious sa aking pusod, I just wanna perfect the art of staring, giving glances, and getting sore eyes altogether.

Pandango sa Ilaw – Hmmnn very Oriental touch kasi.. He he he. Pagkatapos magsayaw itulak sa upuan ang partner, ipahawak sa kanyang mga kamay ang mga basong may kandila. Alright… wooo down boy.. Teka ang kandila ay hindi para patakan ang bare chest, pero I really entertain the idea..weehee, but for pure concentration.. ahh ano na itong pinagsusulat ko)..

Matulog sa Biyahe – Hindi kasi ako sanay matulog ng komportable sa bus, kahit anim na oras ang biyahe. Kaya pagdating sa aking destinasyon mukha akong palaka na naumbag.

Pagmemekaniko – Kahit di ako marunong mag-drive nais kong magbutinting ng mga makina ng sasakyan. Humanity rin ang isa ko pang purpose, para kapag may nasiraan sa daan puwede akong tumulong. Kapag babae yung may-ari ng sasakyan, dapat gentleman. At kapag naman amoy pa lang malasa at hunky na half-Brazilian at half-Japanese ang nasiraan ng sasakyan.. Insert ngising aso. (Ubos lahat ng grasa niya sa katawan)

Massage – Nais kong matuto na parang professional sa pagbibigay ng masahe. Di sinasadyang na-impluwensyahan ako ng Johnsons and Johnsons Baby Oil touch therapy.. nye he he. Naniniwala ako sa healing capacity ng mga tao. O hindi ba napaka-humane ng purpose. Wholistic kasi ang approach ko sa buhay. Extra service? Shave na lang. Shave.

2007-12-15T07:14:00.000-08:00

It may seem that way, but I'd like to think it is not that way. I never was hooked on the idea that there must be regular contributions from the members of this blog. Anyone is free to post here. We're not after the commercialism, all we want is a singular blog of people who incidentally are also g4m members. And even not being a member we don't discriminate. If you feel like posting, then do so. If you don't you're not required to.

2007-12-05T02:10:00.000-08:00

where are the people now? looks like blogging is dying here...

M2M Masahe

2007-10-29T04:37:00.001-07:00

I was browsing the back of Tower Records (where they usually place erotica) when I chanced upon this vcd: M2M Masahe. Seeing it was in the vcd format, I immediately scanned for a dvd copy. There was none. Upon closer glance at the product I saw it was not produced by VIVA (hence the absence of a dvd copy) but VF Productions. Deciding they might have something to offer new I grabbed myself a copy.

Tagline: Hotter and more provocative than any pinoy male video....
A GUIDE TO INTIMATE TOUCH, PLEASURABLE STROKES AND SENSUAL MASSAGE.

(Read: Masahe 101)

And if you look closely, there's some kissing scenes (unlike in Provoq: the Male Friction)

SHOW ME YOU LOVE ME.

2007-10-20T21:52:00.000-07:00

please go this site www.salaswildthoughts.blogspot.com and vote for my blog, which is nominated for FILIPINO BLOG OF THE WEEK. The poll is located at the right-hand side of the said site.

if you want to read my blog before voting for me [to see if i am worthy of this prestigious award], my URL is www.ilovekojimoto.blogspot.com

WOWowee

2007-10-12T18:36:00.001-07:00

Yesterday, i had a chance to catch some daytime television programs since it was a holiday. One particular program that caught me up hooking on the boobtube is the controversial noontime show Wowowee. How is it doing after the "technical glitch" that occurred.

Well, its business as usual for the show. It started with its usual high note of music fun and laughters. A dance revolution with the dance royalties and then a "beat that" portion where the dancers displayed tricks and stunts competing each other. Obviously the more popular tandem of Luningning and Mariposa got the nod of the viewers. Afterwhich they acknowledge each set of studio audience positioned round the studio with the female co host as well as the popular dancers doing the hosting chores. The fun continued with their Sayaw Darling segment, looking for studio audience who can show their dancing er comic skills to get the nod of Willie to be part of the "Bigaten"

After the opening extravaganza, comes another phase of the show, in their first game segment called Willie of Fortune, it features father and son or daughter / mother and son / daughter tandem who happen to have the same birthday. In this segment, a sudden change emotion will occur as the viewers are treated into a rollercoaster of emotions. One time you will cry as the contestants share life's cruelty and in an instant you will laugh at their tactfullness especially those children when asked about their message to their parent. One kid ask her mother to let her play outside, such a humble request that made the entire studio burst into laughter at the same time , amused with the kid's simplicity and candidness.

The same portion is stretched too long that in the end you will lose your concentration especially with that unholy hour wherein your eyes beg to close for an afternoon nap.

All in all, i would still choose to watch this program over the other noontime show precisely because it showcases ordinary lives that in one way or the other became an inspiration to everyone. The show gave you the total entertainment possible.

You call me cheap. okay, but then i would still be a wowowee fanatic!!!

A PETITION

2007-10-02T19:35:00.000-07:00

>>>>>>>FORWARDED MESSAGE:
Dear Kababayan and Allies:
I heard through the grapevine about a remark made on an episode of
"Desperate Housewives" last night. The scene entailed Teri Hatcher's
character (Susan) at a hospital, being told by her gynecologist that
she might be hitting menopause. Susan replied, "Can I just check those
diplomas because I just want to make sure that they are not from some
med school in the Philippines." If you go to abc.com, you watch the
full episode and witness the scene at about 18:50 minutes into the
episode.
This type of derogatory remark is not only unnecessary and
hurtful, but is also unfounded, considering the presence of Filipinos
and Filipino Americans in the health care industry. Filipinos are the
second largest immigrant population in the United States, with many
entering the U.S. and passing their U.S. licensing boards as doctors,
nurses, and medical technicians. In fact, the Philippines produces
more U.S. nurses than any other country in the world. So, to belittle
the education, experience, or value of Filipino Americans in health
care is disrespectful and plain and simply ignorant.
As Filipino Americans, we need to band together to ensure that
this type of hateful message is not allowed to continue on our
television and radio airwaves. Given the recent amounts of media
attention that has been given to Michael Richards (against African
Americans), Isaiah Washington (against gays), and Rosie O'Donnell
(against Asian/ Chinese Americans), it is ridiculous that this type of
hateful speech made it through various screenwriters, the show's
producers, the show's actors, and ABC itself. Yet, this isn't the
first time that negative remarks have been made about the Philippines
or Filipinos in the past. In recent years, we've heard one too many
"dogeater" comments by "comedian" Joan Rivers on the red carpet or in
her standup act, and I believe that it is about time that we stand up
for ourselves, so that this type of hateful speech never happens again.
Please join me in expressing your concern, disappointment, and/or
disgust to the producers of ABC.com. You can sign the petition at
http://www.petitiononline.com/FilABC/ or you can reach them directly
abc7@abc.com.
And please feel free to forward this widely to other
Filipinos/Filipino Americans/Asian Americans/and other allies.

Recall

2007-09-19T20:11:00.000-07:00

Many schools attempted to make men out of children.
However they forgot to remind their students to remember the child.
Never knowing men grew back--needing to be nurtured once more.

Still John Uy

2007-09-16T20:44:00.001-07:00

"This will not be the last time you'll hear from me..." -- John James Uy, Be Bench Grand Finals Night, September 11, 2007

I already knew that Carlo won since it was in the papers last week. (Congratulations to Carlo's fans!) Last night, I watched the event on TV, just so I could see how John fared in the finals. He was still the hottest! I must admit though that he looked as if he doesn't know where to go during the segment where they had wings.

When they announced that John is eliminated, I felt his pain. Awang-awa ako sa kanya. I felt like I wanted to be there and hug him and tell him it's okay (Haha, grabe na ito, IN MY DREAMS!!!).

I think he expected that he will win, or make it to the top four at the very least. He really looked shocked. I even thought he was gonna cry. But no, he did not. And that made me like him even more. I really wanted him to win the competition. Carlo was not my favorite, though he was really the first guy I noticed when I first watched Be Bench. And I admit he has a pretty face and a cute smile. But as the show went on, I lost interest in him. Oh well, that's life. They all deserve to be there, anyway.

Basta ako, kay John pa rin ako! Hehe. Hottest ever!

sojourner

2007-09-14T10:15:00.000-07:00

this part of the city is ambivalent. observe those soft, yellow lights terribly equidistant as we are to pedestrians and passengers who populate the roads below. they serve to illuminate one who feels lost, to ask that easy man for directions, but nothing fancy like kindness.

but further behind the light, in covert places, is forgetting. the darkness knows how to heal what has happened to us in this city, even if only for few hours. close your eyes and believe at this tenderness now claiming your body, a kiss at a time, ebbing where there is need, yielding where you are firm, ending when there is painfully nothing left to give or to take.

a few minutes after, you light a stick at border of this comfort found within the city. the smoke dances away from you, toward the windows, until outside, it dissolves within that air you will breathe later, while you try to withstand the growing distance, while you slowly change as anyone and everyone else, headed for home.

Matandang nagladlad

2007-09-04T20:16:00.000-07:00

Check out this link:

Woman comes out at 88
Maybe someday I'll have the courage to do what she did...
I wonder if the guy who posted this is plu...

meander

2007-08-25T16:03:00.000-07:00

you write indirectly, choosing oblique angles to capture that event, which seems to sink in just now. you do this not only for the beauty of a broken narrative, but a testament to your cowardice to be blatant.

or probably, you are still trying to grapple a perspective, if not the truth, either of which remains elusive up to now. or to segregate the tangled details to suit your understanding. either way, you collect the pieces as you tell the tale to a friend, tolerating incoherence and inaccurate explanations, as this is the only way for you to gauge if you're nearer or father from a past you are trying to relive and forget at the same time.

as he listens attentively, you tell him that the mistake was yours, as if you believe that it is a mistake in the first place. but isn't it? to finally close in on someone now becoming a referent of many things -- songs, images, thoughts beneath thoughts.

i imagine a hand unburdened of a heavy stone, now lost and fumbling amidst lightness. i look at my hand, and i see a lousy metaphor that pleaded to be written. and somewhere within the preceding sentences, the past and the present ramble into each other's path, like one sea wave to another, converging, departing but not enough to separate itself from the other, like this post to its blurry origin, both of them ending without beginning.

Wowowee Controversy.. you be the judge

2007-08-24T23:33:00.000-07:00

The author of the video below somehow tried to give a logical explanation as to why the recently much talked about incident on the show wowowee happened... Express yourselves G4m bloggers

Like a Virgin

2007-08-24T23:23:00.000-07:00

I received a message on my mobile telling me that smart unlimited text service is back, and true enough i manage to register even if it was beyond 5pm cut-off time.

To make use or say abuse the unlimited service, i forwarded a message to everyone on my phonebook with something like this:
"If youre given a chance to ask me one controversial question , what would it be"

The responses were enourmous with random questions that includes safe questions like

sino ka date mo ngayon (who is your date now)

to some inane questions like why a building is called as such when it is already built? there is even a response that says... "did you love me?" , that coming from someone i just meet once. hehe

All throughout the responses, there have been quite a few controversial and mischievous questions being thrown unto me... Questions like

Are you gay?
May experience ka na ba? ( Do you already have an experience?),
Naga fuck ka ba? (Do you fuck?) the question being referred to as sex with the same sex.

One predominant question of all which i was caught offguard was the question of virginity....

Virgin ka pa ba? ( Are you still a virgin?)
Sino nakadivirginize sa yo (Who divirginize you?)
Pwede ba kitang i divirginize (Can i divirginize you?)
What age did you lost your virginity...

These questions brought me back to my high school days where i first had this so called sex...

shivering ... anxious ... afraid... mixed emotions of a boy whose eyes glowed in horror as the predator feasted on his innocent raw body...

Just one of the things found on my closet... hahayzzzzzzzzzz

SOMEONE

2007-08-21T15:43:00.000-07:00

A lot of people has asked me who "Someone" is?

I dont know how to explain it and how to introduce him in this blog ...

I think im falling for him (Here we go again turismoboi, akala ko b nagbago ka na?, so impulsive)....

At first I wasnt aware of this attraction I felt for him, I thought I was just too interested and too intrigued, I thought I was just curious, I even told myself that this is just "libog". I thought that if I find another interesting guy, (thats why I tried to date other people) this attraction will die naturally, but recently I think it was getting stronger.

He was kind to me and the rest of the people as well. He was friendly or maybe too friendly, I dont know if we are really close or its just because thats what I want to think, and I really dont want to ask if he is close to me or not, but right now I could proudly tell he is now special but I dont want to hurt people.

A friend told me maybe it because he's just getting too friendly to me or maybe he was just a professional flirt after all everybody seems to have fallen for him not just me, my friend told me to be distant to him, I was trying to do that for days, but I gave up, I just cant help to be close to him even if its not right. My friend told me that he must be really a flirt or just maybe too attractive for me thats why I'm so eager to be with him.

"Hindi mo pa kasi natitikman, like what you always say libog lang yan"

but is it libog lang? I know by choice this feeling will pass, but I dont know, right now it is killing me, I kept on thinking about him (Here we go again turismoboi, ilang beses na ba narinig sakin yan sa blog) but I just cant help it, thats me, and its wrong, very very wrong.

I am very much aware that things wont work like what I want them to be, "Someone" is very much taken and very much in love with his significant other. I am just a stranger to this scene. I came late and Im sure ill just pass this relationship, maybe ill be the reason for the jealousy, ill be another trial or challenge to make their relationship stronger or maybe im just assuming too much.

"Someone" doesnt know that im feeling this, and I dont want him to have a hint. Im not going to tell this to him at all, not at this time or not even in a later time, its just too complicated to express this feeling especially now, im not sure how he will even react, he may just laugh, I dont even want to see his suprised, unexpected reaction. I will be a laughing stock of the couple and the people around us. There are lot of single persons out there? Im not sure why I'm attracted to this one? (TANGA!)

Recently he was giving signs that I think hes attracted to me as well (or maybe I thought there were signs but they are actually not) but I guess he is also now aware that the so called friendship we are building is going to a different direction if we allow it, I think he loves his significant other and he doesnt to hurt him again. I was kind of a witness on how he tried to fight for this relationship. Now that there is a calm water on their end, here I come storming around.

I have decided now to set a distance. I hardly text him or talk to him. I found as well a sign and an excuse last week to set more distance, he's smart I'm sure sooner or later he will realize that im doing this because I dont want to hurt anyone, I am helping him not to commit a mistake. I am helping myself to fall out of love or maybe not to fall in love at all. At this point, I believe this is just attraction but I really dont want this to progress to something.

Coincidentally, I was browsing Youtube when I found this new video of Avant and Nicole Scherzinger of the Pussycat Dolls, video was good but the message really hit me

Below are some of the lyrics and the youtube video, red portions of the song hit what I want to express, and the blue portions of the song are the ones I ambitiously want him to express.

Lie about us

"Baby I know when we started out there were things you didn't know, but babygirl we got a lotta things we
Need to discuss I know I'm asking for a lot, but just trust. you say that things gettin old sneakin'
Round creepin' and love on the low but baby girl I can't wait till' it's officially us, I can't wait to
Let them know about us.

First I thought that I could take you boy but I don't know, you told me you were gonna leave her for me Long ago.

Eventually I will but I just gotta take it slow don't wanna break her heart, altough I gotta let her go So baby ..

So please don't say you wanna give up.
How do I tell her that I'm falling in love,
And I know you're waiting patiently for that day
When we no longer have to lie about us.
Im with her all I want is your touch,
And when you call me I don't wanna hang up,
And I know I say it often but I can't wait
Till' we no longer have to lie about us.

Baby I know situation don't seem fair to us both.
But babygirl, she's an issue that I'm bout to adjust.
Don't mistake our love is meant for just us,
You are my soul, mind, body, spirit all that I know.
But babygirl I can't wait till' it's officially us,
I can't Wait to tell the world about us.

Moving forward, I dont want you to leave my blog with an impression that I want something to happen, I am hoping but Im not expecting.

I know where I stand. Enough said.

Maybe I'll just wait........... or maybe not.

mandy moore's version of umbrella

2007-08-19T12:14:00.000-07:00

just wanted to share this one guys hehehehe!

i found it cute!

Pinakamagandang Komento para sa OFW ay mula kay Malu Fernandez:

2007-08-18T22:08:00.001-07:00

However I forgot that the hub was in Dubai and the majority of the OFWs (overseas Filipino workers) were stationed there. The duty-free shop was overrun with Filipino workers selling cell phones and perfume. Meanwhile, I wanted to slash my wrist at the thought of being trapped in a plane with all of them.

While I was on the plane (where the seats were so small I had bruises on my legs), my only consolation was the entertainment on the small flat screen in front of me. But it was busted, so I heaved a sigh, popped my sleeping pills and dozed off to the sounds of gum chewing and endless yelling of “HOY! Kumusta ka na? At taga sann ka? Domestic helper ka rin ba?” Translation: “Hey there? Where are you from? Are you a domestic helper as well?” I though I had died and God had sent me to my very own private hell.

On my way back, I had to bravely take the economy flight once more. This time I had already resigned myself to being trapped like a sardine in a sardine can with all these OFWs smelling of AXE and Charlie cologne while Jo Malone evaporated into thin air.

Ang ganda di ba! Quoted from an issue of People Asia June 2007. What a woman of strong and admirable sensibilities. By the way the honorable lady is a columnist too of Manila Standard today.

“Just recently, I wrote a funny article in my magazine column and my friends thought it was hilarious. It was humorous and quite tongue-in-cheek, or at least I thought so, until the magazine got a few e-mails from people who didn’t get the meaning of my acerbic wit. The bottom line was just that I had offended the reader’s socioeconomic background. If any of these people actually read anything thicker then a magazine they would find it very funny. Most people don’t get the fact that they need bitches like me to shake up their world, otherwise their lives would be boring and mediocre. I obviously write for the a certain target audience and if what I write offends you, just stop reading.

Although it may sound elitist to you the fact is this country is built on the foundation of haves, have-nots and wannabes. One group will never get the culture of the other. Although I could mention that it is easier to understand someone who has a lower socioeconomic background that would entail a whole other page and frankly I don’t want to be someone to bridge the gap between socioeconomic classes. I leave that to the politicians in my family who believe they can actually help. Now I seriously ask you, am I being a diva or are people around me just lacking in common sense? Perhaps it’s a little of both!”

Please visit http://blog.tinig.com
May contest para sa kanya!!!

Thanks to this links too: http://ederic.tinig.com/malu-fernandez

and http://gingmaganda.blogspot.com/

or just google Malu Fernandez

wanna meet!

2007-07-24T23:11:00.000-07:00

tell me how many guys from this list you would like to meet, too?

20%?
50%
73.7899%
100%

let's get it on, shall we?

1) Takeshi Kaneshiro - House of Flying Daggers
2) Chris Evans - Fantastic Four
3) Channing Tatum - Coach Carter, Step Up, She's the Man
4) Antonio Cupo - Saint Sinner
5) Kris Pope - Saint Sinner
6) Greg Serrano - Saint Sinner
7) Marc Blucas - First Daughter
8) Chad Michael Murray - A Cinderella Story
9) Scott Speedman - XXX 2, Evolution, 24th Day
10) Bryan Greenberg - The Perfect Score, Prime
11) Matthew Goode - Chasing Liberty
12) Dominic Purcell - Blade: Trinity
13) Ryan Reynolds - Blade: Trinity, National Lampoon's Van Wilder
14) Kristen Holden-Reid - Touch of Pink
15) Stephen Billington - Braveheart
16) Robert Pattinson - Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
17) Stanislav Ianevski - Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
18) Trevor Blumas - Ice Princess
19) Ryan Carnes - Eating Out
20) John Cho - Harold and Kumar Go to White Castle
21) Troy Garity - After the Sunset
22) Matthew Marsden - Helen of Troy
23) Vincent Cassell - Joan of Arc
24) Brady Corbet - Thunderbirds
25) J Barton - Legally Blonde 2
26) William Moseley - The Chronicles of Narnia
27) Noah Shebib - The Virgin Suicides
28) Ryan Gosling - The Notebook
29) James Marsden - 24th Day, X-Men
30) Salim Kechiouche - Grand Ecole
31) Marton Csokas - Aeon Flux
32) Adrien Brody - King Kong
33) Goetz Otto - Beowulf
34) Nakamura Shidou - Fearless
35) Rodney Scott - Sex and Consequences
36) Kuno Becker - Goal
37) Jean Michel Portal - The Man I Love
38) Tony Yang - Formula 17
39) Jason London - Jason and the Argonauts
40) Kevin Zegers - Transamerica
41) Christos Klapsis - Slutty Summer
42) Daniel Wu - Bishonen
43) Stephen Fung - Bishonen
44) Hu Jan - Lan Yu
45) Glenn Mulhern - 9 Dead Gay Guys
46) Garrett Hedlund - Four Brothers, Eragon
47) Yu Bo - The Old Testament
48) Brendan Fehr - Sugar
49) Ben Foster - X-Men: The Last Stand
50) Wes Ramsey - Latter Days
51) Steve Sandvoss - Latter Days
52) Christian Campbell - Trick
53) Sean Thibodeau - Luster
54) Brandon Routh - Superman Returns
55) Chris Klein - The Long Weekend
56) Brendan Fehr - The Long Weekend
57) Andrew Chalmers - A Home at the End of the World
58) Randy Becker - Love! Valour! Compassion!
59) Justin Kirk - Love! Valour! Compassion!
60) Steven Strait - Sky High, The Covenant
61) Eddie Castrodad - Torch Song Trilogy
62) Tony Cheung - Happy Together
63) Chang Chen - Happy Together
64) Zac Efron - High School Musical
65) Ryne Sanborn - High School Musical
66) Jake Abel - Go Figure
67) Shawn Ashmore - Cadet Kelly, X-Men
68) Robert Hoffman - She's the Man
69) Jay Chou - Initial D
70) Edison Chen - Initial D
71) Chris Pine - Just My Luck
72) Jon Foster - Stay Alive
73) Chace Crawford - The Covenant
74) Jonathan Malen - Take the Lead
75) Jason Schwartzman - Marie Antoinette
76) Shin Koyamada - The Last Samurai
77) Ed Speleers - Eragon
78) Keith Robinson - Dreamgirls
79) Tom Wisdom - 300
80) Michael Fassbender - 300
81) Matt Long - Ghostrider
82) Wes Bentley - Ghostrider
83) Winston Chau - The Wedding Banquet
84) Li Jiabei - Shanghai Panic
85) Zhou Zhijie - Shanghai Panic
86) Lee Yeong-Hoon - No Regret
87) Karl Urban - Pathfinder
88) James Franco - Spiderman
89) Topher Grace - Spiderman 3
90) Shia LaBeauf - The Greatest Game Ever Played
91) Rodrigo Santoro - Love Actually, 300
92) Gus Carter - Bring It On: All or Nothing
93) Alexander Manning - Zoolander

are you still breathing?

hahaha!

crying tears of joy

2007-07-24T23:06:00.000-07:00

after almost 4 months of nationwide blocking of youtube.com in thailand, i am soooo freaking happy, crying tears of 'sensual' joy, when YT was 'reinstated' today.

in april 4, the New York Times said:

'“We have blocked YouTube because it contains a video insulting to our king,” said Winai Yoosabai, head of the censorship unit at the Ministry of Communication and Information Technology.

Thailand’s ban on YouTube, the popular video-sharing Web site, came after YouTube’s owner, Google, refused to remove the video clip, the communications minister, Sitthichai Pookaiyaudom, said.

The clip, crude and amateurish and lasting less than a minute, depicts the king with clown features painted onto his face and an image of feet pasted over his head, an insulting gesture in Thailand.

In Thailand, insulting King Bhumibol Adulyadej is a criminal offense. Last week, a Swiss man convicted of vandalizing images of the king and Queen Sirikit was sentenced to 10 years in prison.

Since the military government came to power with the overthrow of Prime Minister Thaksin Shinawatra last September, it has banned Web sites, instructed the media to minimize reporting about Mr. Thaksin and has at times blacked out broadcasts of international news channels like CNN. Reporting in newspapers remains lively and apparently uncensored, except for criticism of the monarchy.

Mr. Winai said his department was looking for the person responsible for posting the clip of the king, which had been viewed more than 16,000 times and was posted by someone using the name Paddidda.'

there has been a lot of political, social, religious and economic unrest in Thailand since the military overtake September last year.

everyone is hoping that this would be a start of a 'more democratic', idiosyncratic as it may seem, governance.

oh, there's a big election happening on August.

whatever it is, i hope the Thais exercise their 'bigger' freedom to choose their leaders and 'meatier' share on how their Constitution will govern them.

i am not officially back to the World!

the rollercoaster ride

2007-07-24T13:30:00.001-07:00

I’ve never been to Enchanted Kingdom, I have been to Star City and Ocean Park in HongKong, but i’ve never been to EK.

Ive never rode the rollercoaster too, ive never even tried to ride the pathetic Zycloon loop in Star City, the nearest almost rollercoaster ride experience will be most probably the Raging River in Ocean Park and the Wild River in Star City, I’ve always wanted to ride the rollercoaster.

From now on I should be careful of what I wish for, you’ll never know u might get it in a split second, without you even knowing it.

The line to the ticket booth

So it started with text messages, conversations over the phone, sensible ones may I add, it was nice, it was smart talking, no boner teasing , no naughty saliva flowing SOPs, it was pure talk, two people getting to know each other, its like finding someone u think u know, while falling in line upon getting the tickets u’ve always wanted, after all it was your first time.

The tickets

So after several exchanges of nothing special but pure talk, aware of that growing (well I thought it was) “ATTRACTION” (or more than that), you both decided to meet, eager to know each other, you just bought the tickets, you’re almost there, waiting for your turn to be seated, waiting to be seated next to that someone you just found, a new found friend or more than that or maybe neither of both.

The seat

It was a two-seater rollercoaster, the type you see in cartoons, you can almost see the heart signs from the horizon, u know ur coming there, ur going to pass it for sure, sharing it with someone on your side, someone you like but ur not sure if he likes you, the mystery of the ride excites you, you try to stare at his eyes, but hes not that ready for you, maybe your moving fast or maybe its just that he's thinking too fast as well, aware of his instincts, aware of the signs he wants to see, is he scared like you, to ride that rollercoaster for the first time?, is he feeling the same way?, is he taking a risk as well if he will enjoy the ride?, did he really took a risk, well u’ll never know until the engine starts.

The ride

So the engine starts, slowly but surely u know its going to be fast, you try to relax, breathe heavily, and there it goes, the comfy straight line ride, the part where you just think that all is going well for this ride at all, its not that bad huh? Not at all for your first time, you then feel comfortable, well I guess only you but not that someone beside you, he was far away, he was too busy trusting his instincts, he’s there but his mind is elsewhere, or maybe not, ull never know until you get to the loop. The scariest yet exciting part of the ride. This is it!

The loop

You then feel some tension, your lungs is raising, its hard to breathe, you try to touch the rails of your seat, but I guess its too far to reach, you then ask him to hold you, this is what you were waiting for, you’ve always wanted to touch him, how would his hands fit into yours? But he resists, he then tells you “its too early”, you then became vulnerable, you became so small, you got embarrassed, maybe I was over reacting, you know its the loop part but how come, maybe I was just impulsive, maybe ur just too clingy, maybe ur just too mushy, maybe its just nerves, is it because of the ride or is it because of him? You don’t know! You’re not sure so you tried to enjoy the ride even if its already freaking you out.

The fall

As you feel butterflies in your stomach, you then felt like your slipping, you started to panic, you tried to get some help, you looked at him questioningly, you then asked him why? He then answers “I just don’t feel a spark, there’s no fondness” and there you go, falling from the loop, the risk you took paid off, your flying in the air, you looked at him, but I guess he was too far already, you wouldn’t know what he was thinking, it was instinct he said, and it was carelessness for you, next time fasten the seatbelt because it was not enough, your not good enough! He was up there, your just here, you’ll never know when you’ll see him again, I guess you will never will, he wouldn’t take the risk, he wouldn’t take the chance, after all it was instinct who told him so. Your nothing but a speck of false hope in that big word!

The catchers

You felt the ground, it was too fast, Joms was right! Now u know?!, You just wanted to be yourself, you don’t want to pretend, but there’s no spark, you were not that good enough, your just a speck to that big word!, your nothing compared to the other riders, your not that sensible, your not that hot, your not good looking or maybe because your just too conceited? But hey you will never know right?! You will never will! The ground feels soft, the ground feels like human, you then realized your being carried, you then saw your friends,

There was John telling you: “Diyosa ka! Isa siyang immortal! Tonta!”

Apollo: “Maybe your just too much for him to handle, Cute ka naman ah! Marami pang nakapila”

Nazi : “Tigilan mo yang kalandian na yan, mag videoke na lang tayo”

Tim: “Red Box b to?! Join ako!”

Red: "There is someone out there that is better and who will love u more, m just here if u need me ok?"

And then u felt like you just found home, the ride was nice, maybe the next try will be better? The encouraging words help you, comforted you, you started to pick up yourself, faster than expected, you sat down in the corner "I think ill better wait till someone ask me again to ride that rollercoaster!"

So What’s Turismoboi’s good at then?

I guess, I can MOVE ON faster unlike no other gay guy in the Philippines can do

“I wanted to thank you for all of the nice conversations, I wish you luck, I actually prayed to God to help you find that someone your looking for, to continuously trust your instincts and never let them deceive you, maybe we’ll meet in another time, we don’t know, I tried to be friends and keep in touch but I guess it wasn’t that right, after all friendships sometimes do needs sparks as well, I guess…………..”

Water is Life

2007-07-24T02:16:00.000-07:00

DRINK WATER ON EMPTY STOMACH

It is popular in Japan today to drink water immediately after waking up every morning. Furthermore, scientific tests have proven a its value. We publish below a description of use of water for our readers. For old and serious diseases as well as modern illnesses the water treatment had been found successful by a Japanese medical society as a 100% cure for the following diseases: Headache, body ache, heart system, arthritis, fast heart beat, epilepsy, excess fatness, bronchitis asthma, TB, meningitis, kidney and urine diseases, vomiting, gastritis, diarrhea, piles, diabetes, constipation, all eye diseases, womb, cancer and menstrual disorders, ear nose and throat diseases.

METHOD OF TREATMENT

1. As you wake up in the morning before brushing teeth, drink 4 x 160ml glasses of water

2. Brush and clean the mouth but do not eat or drink anything for 45 minutes

3. After 45 minutes you may eat and drink as normal.

4. After 15 minutes of breakfast, lunch and dinner do not eat or drink anything for 2 hours

5. Those who are old or sick and are unable to drink 4 glasses of water at the beginning may commence by taking little water and gradually increase it to 4 glasses per day.

6. The above method of treatment will cure diseases of the sick and others can enjoy a healthy life. The following list gives the number of days of treatment required to cure/control/reduce main diseases: 1. High Blood Pressure - 30 days 2. Gastric - 10 days 3. Diabetes - 30 days

4. Constipation - 10 days

5. Cancer - 180 days

6. TB - 90 days

7. Arthritis patients should follow the above treatment only for 3 days in the 1st week, and from 2nd week onwards - daily.

This treatment method has no side effects, however at the commencement of treatment you may have to urinate a few times. It is better if we continue this and make this procedure as a routine work in our life.

Drink Water and Stay Healthy and Active

This makes sense .... the Chinese and Japanese drink hot tea with their meals ..not cold water.

Maybe it is time we adopt their drinking habit while eating!!! Nothing to lose, everything to gain...

For those who like to drink cold water, this article is applicable to you.

It is nice to have a cup of cold drink after a meal. However, the cold water will solidify the oily stuff that you have just consumed. It will slow down the digestion.

Once this "sludge" reacts with the acid, it will break down and be absorbed by the intestine faster than the solid food. It will line the intestine. Very soon, this will turn into fats . It is best to drink hot soup or warm water after a meal.
(Caution: Subject to further research)

WET PARTY

2007-07-02T23:05:00.001-07:00

And so it rained bitches and pussies on the night of the supposedly stunning, breath-taking, pure white party.

Whoever got the idea of establishing gates on the streets of Nakpil must’ve lost their minds. The fact that the skiiii has unloaded made it even worse – long queues for the entrance while experiencing the humid wrath of nature. They should’ve at least installed a couple of big umbr-ellas to sustain the immense crowd anticipated.

It sucks big time.

~ ~ ~ MYRRH

G4M Dialogue: On Aggression

2007-07-01T18:52:00.000-07:00

Guys would do everything to get noticed and there are always two things to do that. Either they would project a very good impression or a very bad one. It has to be extreme because if not, they would be just one ordinary boring individual. Here’s one recent message exchange I have with one guy from cyberspace.

24 Jun 2007, 18:22
cretan: ... to promote blogs ?

with a isinuative abs pic and info large cock?

24 Jun 2007, 23:59
You: u should visit my blog. especially justforthetrip. hahaha

25 Jun 2007, 00:00
cretan: what for? im not going to patronize u

25 Jun 2007, 08:17
You: hahaha. no problem. ur not my loss. ;)

25 Jun 2007, 17:13
cretan: NEITHER ARE U THE WORLD'S LOSS.

UR LOST! Hahahaha

25 Jun 2007, 19:19
You: u r enjoying this. i guess u need me tohave urself a good laugh. unfortunately, this would be my last message to u. and i would be ur great loss.

im really sorry for that. ;)

I have received even nastier comments than this but it still ended fine. I know the guy had messaged me before and I could have not responded. That angered him and that is the only reason I could think of to provide answers to his hostile attacks.

I never liked to get aggressive when I am attack, even though how destructive it is. I always follow the golden rule, “Do unto others what you want others do unto you.” I believe that if you show kindness to even the cruelest man on the planet, he would do the same. Head-on confrontation results to further conflict and in the end both could end up loosing.

I think the guy finally see that because he did not reply to my last message. I think reason had finally got into him. Or maybe he’s devising another strategy of attack. Think of human persistence.

But beware. Those who angers you, defeats you.

2007-06-28T23:59:00.000-07:00

PBB HOKUS POKUS

The current season of the reality tv show Pinoy Big brother is now into its final days... or it could be the whole franchise might be in its final run because of the controversies the show got in the entirety of its second season run.

ONE particular controversy involved the so called "favorite" of the show's business head. INfamous of her tactless yet without breeding comments and reaction after the face to face nomination , housemate wendy got the ire of the viewing public and everywhere in pbb forums, hate mails and spam mails circulated like a wildfire. It can be recalled that this housemate was already evicted from the house but was returned, no thanks, to their "BALIK BAHAY" twist.

The subscribers of PBB 24/7 on the net are also complaining because two cameras being livestreamed online always focuses on wendy adding to the already built up notion that this housemate is big brother's favorite.

One eviction put the viewers in rage when a public darling housemate nel became a sacrificial lamb to 'save' housemate wendy. Comparing the status of the two, the former being loved by the masses because of his sense of humor and good attitude while the latter, being hated for her uncalled for behavior, who would not raised their eyebrows to hell when Nel was voted out in favor of wendy?

Then last night was the night everyone was looking forward to. Everyone hoped that of the five remaining housemate, surely wendy will be eliminated from the big 4. But the final eviction was the other way around. The showbiz son "Bodie" was evicted and wendy again was safe and became part of season 2's BIG four.

The people at the eviction hall were shouting 'WENDY LABAS WENDY" (wendy out wendy) showing their disagreement on the latest turn of event.

Now that wendy is part of the big four, a possibility of her emerging as the big winner is not a farfetched scenario. The fans are crossing their fingers and are hoping she wont win or else, legions of followers of the pbb might nowhere to be found in the next season of the show if there would be...

A "booo" for wendy is in the offing comes the big night at the big dome. Something to look forward to...

as of now, we just have to sigh...

2007-06-23T07:40:00.001-07:00

Sometimes I really wish that there was a device conencted to my brain that would automatically convert my thoughts into written (or typed as this case may be) words. But then again, that would result in millions of blog entries that even I might not be able to keep up with.

Last night friends invited me to a gimmick somewhere in Manila (technically Malate but not the Malate we PLU know). It was really a large circle, inadvertently my friend-crush was also invited. It was an exciting prospect to share a taxi ride with him, you know, bonding and getting to know each other.

As it is, it was really a crush. However, I believe years of being single had somehow made me desperate (and I affirm that its just a bit) and I deluded myself in having a chance with him. Time and time again (and this time was no different) I'd be sarcastic to him so that he won't bother me and yet at the same breath I would wish he could be mine [insert song here].

Double kill
1. We were supposed to pick up a friend in Makati before going there.
2. I saw his ex.

And the killings didnt stop.

(to be continued...)

One of the Greatest Mind Said and an Apology to Him

2007-06-21T21:56:00.000-07:00

"The most beautiful thing we can experience is the mysterious. It is the source of all true art and all science. He to whom this emotion is a stranger, who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead: his eyes are closed."

"Two things are infinite: the universe and human stupidity; and I'm not sure about the the universe."

"A human being is a part of a whole, called by us _universe_, a part limited in time and space. He experiences himself, his thoughts and feelings as something separated from the rest... a kind of optical delusion of his consciousness. This delusion is a kind of prison for us, restricting us to our personal desires and to affection for a few persons nearest to us. Our task must be to free ourselves from this prison by widening our circle of compassion to embrace all living creatures and the whole of nature in its beauty."

"Imagination is more important than knowledge."

"The release of atom power has changed everything except our way of thinking...the solution to this problem lies in the heart of mankind. If only I had known, I should have become a watchmaker."

-- -- --
-- -- --

Dear Sir,

If we had only known, yet we always know what to know, yet we do not know how to not know.
If I had only known.

I apologize.

Sincerely,

Dave

Boys Are Gifts

2007-06-16T23:26:00.000-07:00

Boys are gifts. Let us pause and appreciate them :-) (This video was taken by one of our sisters.)

2007-06-13T08:49:00.000-07:00

Hmm why not post something about your first sexual encounter?

The Legend of the Chorvah

2007-05-29T21:40:00.000-07:00

CHORVAH has its etymology from the Greek word cheorvamus meaning "for lack of the right word to say", or "in place of anything you want to express but cannot verbalize". Ibig sabihin pala, siya ay parang "aloha" sa wikang Hawaiiano, which can mean many, many things.

"Chorvah" can be used as:

Noun: "ano" / "kwan" / "or something"

"Ate Glow, kelan yung birthday chorvah ni Big Mike?"
"Hoy, Vicky to, whatcha gonna wear ba? The sporty or the chinese chorvah mo?"

Adjective: used if you want to be polite.

"Ang chorvah naman niyan!"
( So, ano ba? Pangit ba o maganda? Baduy ba or ang arte?)
They will never know what you really mean. How polite!

Verb: can replace any verb

"Chorvah lang ng chorvah!"

Chorvah is such an amazing word, it lets you choose your own adventure. At least you will never be accused of putting words in somebody else's mouth. If you don't have anything to say, or you can't find the right word to say, or you want to say something but you don't know how to say it, just say CHORVAH!

Variations: Chuvah, Chenes, Chenelyn

(this is a repost from a yahoo group)

TriNoma (First Part)

2007-05-28T05:29:00.001-07:00

He had been waiting across the street when I got out of the office after our shift.

Wearing a faded jeans, a white hooded shirt and a cap, it is one of the very rare moments when somebody picks me up and patiently waits for me to finish my duties.

Usually, it's the other way around.

The guy is as tall as me. He must be a 5'9er. At first glance, he looks stocky to me. However his big arms and broad shoulders will tell that he's into gym as well. He has a tanned skin which is slightly lighter than mine and small droopy eyes that always look sleepy when you gaze at them. Not bad, especially if you would consider his overall projection which is, by all accounts, twice as masculine as me.

I think he's a good catch.

"So how was your day dude?" He asked me.

"I'm good, a little lazy today." I replied.

We started walking towards the jeepney stop, unsure of a place to go. When we reached the intersection where P and I used to walk together, my impulse told me to turn right and still walk the long broken road going to Shaw Boulevard. I knew my companion was observing me. Obviously, he felt my sadness. For he walked faster to get ahead of me, only to turn back so that he could get my full attention.

"Gusto mo try natin sa Epitome? Let's have fun there," he said.

I just smiled and continued walking. Lately, I'm in no mood to get naughty - except if it was my buddy I am with. With a slight sign of disappointment, his mood became serious again and for the rest of our journey towards the main road, we were not talking.

He never asked where we would be heading. All I know was that he just followed me quietly. In front of the jeep where we had chosen to sit, I saw him glanced at me when I looked at the side mirror. Maybe he was assessing his strategy to reach out to me. Perhaps, he was scanning my hotness factor considering that he's one of the horniest guys that I know.

At the MRT, we remained non-communicative to one other. No one wants to talk and being a guy that does not really talk - a lot, I did not expect him to make the first moves. But I knew he was trying to get close, he just don't know how. There were times he would put his elbow on my shoulder and since it was cool with me, I leaned closer - to let him know that I feel good to what he was doing.

When we arrived at TriNoma, the newest super mall in the city, the first thing we did was to look for an ATM booth. He said it will be his treat, no matter how I insisted to pay our bills. I told him that it was me who invited him to go out, but my pleas only fell to his deaf ears.

Since it was already past 3 pm and both of us had not eaten our lunch yet, we immediately went to the food court. Craving for pasta, I suggested that we should try World's Chicken since they serve the best Fettuccine Alfredo that I know of. He complied immediately since his hunger won't let him complain any longer.

When our order was served, we ate our late-lunch at a table nearby.

Halfway towards finishing our lunch, he suddenly broke the silence by asking me a cryptic question:

"So why did you leave me Joms, I thought I would always be around for you?"

"But I thought you're the one who abandoned me. You left me alone defending myself and my emotions from that last guy I've been attached with," I said, while slicing a large chunk of grilled chicken on my plate.

"Did I? I tried to reach out to you dude, but your emotions were too messed up for me to get close to you. Maybe you didn't want me to intervene in your affairs after your fall-out? Maybe you were enjoying in your own pain, that you never sought me to pull you out so that I could help you move on much easier."

"Yeah I did... I just don't want to get hurt by others anymore. Don't you see that it's useless...?"

"Useless what?" From the tone of his voice, I knew that he was a bit agitated already.

"Nothing... Let's not talk about it right now. What's important is that you're here again," I said.

My companion did not reply after I told him how vital his presence is to me. He just briefly looked into my tired eyes, smiled and went back to emptying his plate full of pasta. He must have sensed that I was too self-absorbed with my own pain to take his suggestions.

After our meal, we didn't stay long at the food court since there were many diners waiting for their turn at the table. We went to the top floor, hoping to see a scenic view at the open-air park over there. Unfortunately, the clouds hung heavy around us so there was nothing really to see. Besides, the landscaping staff were still busy applying finishing touches to the pond and the viewing deck across from where we were standing. After a minute of looking around, we decided to go back and check out the stores in the mall instead.

"Let's go see a movie," I suggested.

"And what movie do you want to see, Joms?" He asked.

"Anything that is feel-good. I need to laugh," I said.

"Then let's watch Shrek 3. Im sure you will find the movie a laugh trip."

So we went to watch that movie. Fortunately it was just about to start and there were still many seats available inside the theater. We picked an isolated area near the screen because we were both nearsighted. I also don't want the other moviegoers to get annoyed the moment I start laughing my heart out.

Shrek 3 was indeed a laughing trip - especially the part where Snow White was making a freakish dance move in order to get the tree-soldiers' attention, while singing in her all-original 1920's voice. Imagine the classic Snow White Disney movie where she sang in the woods and attracted all the furry animals to approach her. Remember the small blue and white birds perching on her shoulders while the squirrels and deers wander around her feet. That was how the scene was like at Shrek 3. Indeed, every critter in the forest and the two tree-soldiers (which looks exactly like the Ents in Lord Of The Rings) suddenly got fascinated at the innocent-looking Snow White.

However, the pleasant mood changes suddenly the moment Snow White's singing voice became raging and powerful. Suddenly, all the furry animals around her became blood-lusty and simultaneously attacked the tree guards by gnawing at their trunks and leaves. For some reasons, that part made me laugh so loud, that even the moviegoers several seats from us suddenly looked at me.

It doesn't matter though, I had fun. For all I know, I rarely laugh that loud. The only other thing that could make me do so is Wanda Ilusyonada's blog.

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-tobecontinued-

thief in the house

2007-05-26T16:17:00.000-07:00

As i was busy contemplating about my life and whatever happened to my relationship with my ex bf who found a new bf (btw a chaka bf) BITTER!?

no its just charantia! abs bitter herbs! running in my veins pakshet!

i have ignored a major happening in my very own house

here how the story goes

we have a relative who is a very lazy person who stays in our house for some months already

this relative is the grandson of the mother in law of my mommy (as in lola)

technically, he's a very distant relative, but u knw filipinoes, everybody seems to be your relative especially if they are close with the family

my mommy is a very hospitable woman, even though this guy did stole money and jewelry from her back when her late husband (my daddy as in lolo) was still living, that was during the 1980's

she still accepted this guy in our house after 20 years of him not showing up

she gave him a second chance, he needed some help at that time, no money, no house, no job, no family, his son and wife left him and went back to the province

but a thief will always be a thief

at first everything seems to be fine in our house,

"wala namang nawawala"

nita our maid is a very trustworthy person and we have proven that already

this guy however was a stranger to us at all

he is jobless, he always sleep, he even drinks and smokes even in front of my mommy

in fairness to him there are small good things that he had done with us

like being a guard to our gate, receiving calls when were not home, making sure the dogs eat well etc etc

but like what i said sooner or later... the thief will still be a thief

one morning, he asked my mommy for some old clothes, he will go to the province and ask for forgiveness to her wife and son daw! and give those clothes daw?! to our underprivileged relatives as well,

the soft hearted mommy was touched by his supposed to be sincere act of regret so my mommy gathered old clothes and even gave him money for his fare and some food and a small amount of money for his trip

since my mommy trusted him, my mommy told him to go to the third floor and get the clothes that are on the couch

after he picked the clothes which btw he just picked two children t shirts only wherein its supposed to be a big bag, he sped off as quick as flash!

2 weeks after heres the scene in the house

my mommy and cousin are looking for some jewelry that my cousin could wear for the sagala

my cousin is going to attend the biggest santacruzan in makati

ahem! i was once a part of it! i was the reyna emperatriz JOKE!

nah constantino naman hehehehe!

so here it is, my mommy was very definite that she left some jewelry in one of the drawers near the couch

she, nita and my cousin tried to looked for it, as in the whole third floor

but she never found it, then it hit her

could it be him?!

my mommy wanted to believe na its not him but hey who else

alang naman isa sa mga members of the family

plus the fact na he did it before,

benefit of the doubt?! if ur going to ask me, i dont think so, it doesnt apply to this one

the guy has thief records before and he ran like he's not going back at all

my mama (as in mama tlaga) was so mad with my mommy, the jewelries were supposed to be in the vault at the bank

it seems that my mommy didnt inform us that she took some jewelry out of the vault

my mama was very frustrated and mad as hell

now what happened to the thief

well till now he hasnt showed up yet its almost a month already

and i dont think he will do, its going to take another 20 years before he goes back to us

grabe!

he stole worth 20,000 of jewelry, its not about how much it cost but the trust kc

plus the fact that we've been good to him, we gave him food, money for his cigarettes and sometimes i give him some allowance pa

we thought with that goodness you showed him, he will change, but hey he didnt

its all sad,

my mama still doesnt talk with my mommy because of this,

she told my mommy before, not to let this guy live with us for a long time

my mama had the vibes but my mommy wasnt listening

now heres the result

hayyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so bad!

a time to see what’s mine

2007-05-26T04:58:00.000-07:00

meng,

Every second of the day is a tasked accomplished by hope, reinforced by the idea of love and what tomorrow holds for us. It’s not wishful thinking, like the first time I saw you that I’ve told myself you’re someone too much to take but I knew I want you right then. Now, I’m so into you and I can’t get enough.

Everytime we are together it might appears that I’m in control, exploding with confidence and know what to do next. But I don’t honestly really know what to do next. Everytime we are apart I feel the relief of being away from you. However, I am soaked up of wanting being with you again.

I love you. This I not say every second or every hour. I’m taking that fact for granted. And this truth could change for I have no reason to know the future. And these words could change because I’m taking it to the next level of loving you.

And if I do have a reason to know the future it would be a question of how things might have been—so that I could change the moment and live to love a man like you for a lifetime.

So I guess it is about time to end this mutual friendship.

And the world hasn’t seen if this will be the greatest finishing act of all but nobody will wonder to care; only again to stand little in the corner of the shadows. Everything could have been a product of an imagination but tell it to me, right in my eyes, say the words I dare not spoken for I have been always scared. I am no longer the same and things won’t be the same for us.

There were those times I don’t believe it could happen to me, but now I find these are the real times I admit I need somebody badly. I can be strong and alone and that you know very well. But do you also know I’m falling for you for a reason and a thousand more reasons. Writing this makes me sober like the day of clouded sky and gentle breezes, unsure what dreams and nights are really made of. Look what you did to me.

warmest hug,

dave

Just a bit of a laugh.

2007-05-20T06:27:00.000-07:00

Just a bit of a laugh.
Actual call centre conversations !!!!!

Customer: "I've been ringing 0700 2300 for two days and can't get through to enquiries, can you help?".
Operator: "Where did you get that number from, sir?".
Customer: "It was on the door to the Travel Centre".
Operator: "Sir, they are our opening hours".

Samsung Electronics

Caller: "Can you give me the telephone number for Jack?"
Operator: "I'm sorry, sir, I don't understand who you are talking about".
Caller: "On page 1, section 5, of the user guide it clearly states that I need to unplug the fax machine from the AC wall socket and telephone Jack before cleaning. Now, can you give me the number for Jack?"
Operator: "I think you mean the telephone point on the wall".

RAC Motoring Services

Caller: "Does your European Breakdown Policy cover me when I am travelling in Australia?"
Operator: " Doesn't the product name give you a clue?"

Caller (enquiring about legal requirements while travelling in France): "If I register my car in France, do I have to change the steering wheel to the other side of the car?"

Directory Enquiries

Caller: "I'd like the number of the Argoed Fish Bar in Cardiff please".
Operator: "I'm sorry, there's no listing. Is the spelling correct?"
Caller: "Well, it used to be called the Bargoed Fish Bar but the 'B' fell off".

Then there was the caller who asked for a knitwear company in Woven.
Operator: "Woven? Are you sure?"
Caller: "Yes. That's what it says on the label; Woven in Scotland".

On another occasion, a man making heavy breathing sounds from a phone box told a worried operator:
"I haven't got a pen, so I'm steaming up the window to write the number on".

Tech Support: "I need you to right-click on the Open Desktop".
Customer: "OK".
Tech Support: "Did you get a pop-up menu?".
Customer: "No".
Tech Support: "OK. Right-Click again. Do you see a pop-up menu?"
Customer: "No".
Tech Support: "OK, sir. Can you tell me what you have done up until this point?".
Customer: "Sure. You told me to write 'click' and I wrote 'click'".

Tech Support: "OK. In the bottom left hand side of the screen, can you see the 'OK' button displayed?"
Customer: "Wow. How can you see my screen from there?"

Caller: "I deleted a file from my PC last week and I have just realised that I need it. If I turn my system clock back two weeks will I have my file back again?".

There's always one. This has got to be one of the funniest things in a long time. I think this guy should have been promoted, not fired. This is a true story from the Word Perfect Helpline, which was transcribed from a recording monitoring the customer care department. Needless to say the Help Desk employee was fired; however, he/she is currently suing the Word Perfect organization for "Termination without Cause".Actual dialogue of a former WordPerfect Customer Support employee.
(Now I know why they record these conversations! ):

Operator: "Ridge Hall, computer assistance; may I help you?"
Caller: "Yes, well, I'm having trouble with WordPerfect. "
Operator: "What sort of trouble??"
Caller: "Well, I was just typing along, and all of a sudden the words went away."
Operator: "Went away?"
Caller: "They disappeared. "
Operator: "Hmm So what does your screen look like now?"
Caller: "Nothing."
Operator: "Nothing??"
Caller: "It's blank; it won't accept anything when I type."

Operator: "Are you still in WordPerfect, or did you get out??"
Caller: "How do I tell?"
Operator: "Can you see the C: prompt on the screen??"
Caller: "What's a sea-prompt?"
Operator: "Never mind, can you move your cursor around the screen?"
Caller: "There isn't any cursor: I told you, it won't accept anything I type."
Operator: "Does your monitor have a power indicator??"
Caller: "What's a monitor?"
Operator: "It's the thing with the screen on it that looks like a TV. Does it have a little light that tells you when it's on??"
Caller: "I don't know."
Operator: "Well, then look on the back of the monitor and find where the power cord goes into it. Can you see that??"
Caller: "Yes, I think so."
Operator: "Great. Follow the cord to the plug, and tell me if it's plugged into the wall.
Caller: "Yes, it is."
Operator: "When you were behind the monitor, did you notice that there were two cables plugged into the back of it, not just one??"
Caller: "No."
Operator: "Well, there are. I need you to look back there again and find the other cable."
Caller: "Okay, here it is."
Operator: "Follow it for me, and tell me if it's plugged securely into the back of your computer."
Caller: "I can't reach."
Operator: "Uh huh. Well, can you see if it is??"
Caller: "No."
Operator: "Even if you maybe put your knee on something and lean way over??"
Caller: "Oh, it's not because I don't have the right angle- it's because it's dark."
Operator: "Dark??"
Caller: "Yes - the office light is off, and the only lightI have is coming in from the window."
Operator: "Well, turn on the office light then."
Caller: "I can't."
Operator: "No? Why not??"
Caller: "Because there's a power failure."
Operator: "A power....... .. A power failure? Aha, Okay, we've got it licked now. Do you still have the boxes and manuals and packing stuff your computer came in??"
Caller: "Well, yes, I keep them in the closet."
Operator: "Good. Go get them, and unplug your system and pack it up just like it was when you got it. Then take it back to the store you bought it from."
Caller: "Really? Is it that bad?"
Operator: "Yes, I'm afraid it is."
Caller: "Well, all right then, I suppose. What do I tell them??"
Operator: "Tell them you're too $*%ing stupid to own a computer!!!! !

Tips for seducing a straight guy

2007-05-20T05:43:00.000-07:00

Galing sa isang SMS

Tips for seducing a straight guy

1. Flatter them, they may not show it but men always want[ed] to have their ego bolstered through praise.

2. Throw naughty jokes about sex when only the two of you are together.

3. Be extra nice and caring.

4. Be generous.

5. Watch a straight porn with him. When lust[s] starts to set him on fire and no woman is in sight [sic], chances are you'll get lucky sister! Even straight guys unconsciously desire an encounter with the [third] same sex.

6. If all else fails, the answer is alcohol in large quantities. Kapag nalasing na siya, ehehe winner ka na!

Singlehood... Reasons for Seasons

2007-05-19T22:49:00.000-07:00

This is a repost from a g4m forum posted by a good friend. His handle is Beta_blocker. This is a February 25, 2005 entry from his blog. Author unknown. But it's worth sharing... Read on!

"People come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. When you figure out which it
is, you know exactly what to do. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a Godsend, and they are. They are there for the reason, you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (any way); and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life."

The Legend of the Three Sexes

2007-05-19T07:27:00.000-07:00

"This is why we always find someone to love..."

Do you ever wonder if you really have a soulmate?
Do you ever wonder why there are gays and lesbians?
Don't you ever wonder why some people love their same sex?
Do you ever wonder why some people love their opposite sex?
And do you ever wonder why these love are indestructible?
Why do most people seem to cannot live without someone to love?
And finally, why is it that people do not know what they have until it is gone?

Let me tell you about the Myth of Love...

It was said that before, in the origin of times, there were three sexes; male, female, and androgene. Original humans do not look like how we humans look today. Humans before were said to be twice of each person now, with two heads, two pair of eyes, two pair of lips, four hands, four feet, two bodies, two hearts, and of course two genitals. Then, if the person has two vaginas, that is a female. If the person has two penis, that is a male person. If the person has both the two different organs, a vagina and a penis, then that person is an androgene. They said that androgenes were the most beautiful people among all because they have mostly the best features and characteristics of both the male and the female. Because these people dream of being in heaven, even if they already have the heavens in their selves, they want to experience it even for just a little while. And so they climbed to Mount Olympus. Zeus got furious upon seeing the people going up the mountain. He said, "How dare these immortals climb our wondrous world? And to think I'd let them experience it! Especially now that they do not cherish of what they have!!! " He got so mad that he used his lightning bolts to cut each person in half to make them weaker enough so as not to continue on climbing." The God of Healers healed the wounds of the people cut in half. And from then on, everyone started to look out for their pair the moment they got down from the mountains.

This is why there is the term "soulmates". Their bodies, in which their souls rest, used to be one. Therefore soulmates. They said that this is also the reason why there are people who love their same sex, the gays and lesbians. They are the males and females before. And this also explains why gays are creative, because they are both males before, they tend to concentrate on what they lack. The same thing for lesbians. Because they are both females before, they tend to be strong as not to be underestimated. Androgenes would be equal to male and female lovers. That is why nowadays these couples are the most acceptable, stronger, and the most beautiful among all partners, they have the strength of both males and females. Lovers nowadays, whether gay, lesbian, or male and female couples, are indestructible because they are the pairs before. They are really meant to be. This myth also explains why it is natural for people to just realize the value of the people they love only when they are about to be gone or are already gone. Because this happened even before, and we become weaker without our pair. We realize that we need them, truly love them, and that together, we are stronger. This is also why we kiss.We always try to find the lips wherein ours will fit well. This is also why we like to hold hands with the one we love, to find out if the spaces between their fingers are the spaces where ours used to lay. And finally, this is why we always find someone to love. We always want to complete ourselves... Because we need the strength of the one we love in order to go on with the hardships of life... We need to fill in a missing space... And most of all, because we used to have two hearts.

We need to find the other one.

Isang Maikling Panaginip

2007-05-15T18:24:00.000-07:00

May 13, 2007, sometime before 5:30 a.m.

Dinalaw ako ng isang maikling panaginip. Sa panaginip na ito, natutulog daw ako. May katabi akong dalawang lalaki, isa sa kanan at isa sa kaliwa. Lahat kami ay nakatagilid, at nakaharap sa iisang direksyon. Nagulat na lamang ako nang biglang naramdaman ko sa aking likod ang isang matigas na bagay. ____ ng katabi ko. Ang sarap ng pakiramdam. Hinawakan nya ang aking kamay, at nang lilingon na ako para tingnan sya at para magawa na namin ang dapat gawin.... NAGISING AKO!!! Hindi na ako muling nakatulog pa... Bad trip di ba?! Sana isa sa mga gabing ito ay mapanaginipan ko uli yon, at sana, hindi na bitin.

Tales Of The Firebomb Survivors

2007-05-06T19:12:00.000-07:00

I.

Bumaba siya sa kanto ng Shaw at Kalentong, alam kung saan patungo. Upang madagdagan ang kanyang dalang pera, nagwithdraw pa siya sa Banco De Oro, na isang tawid lang mula sa kanyang binabaan. Sa tapat nito ay makikita ang Jollibee kung saan may mga jeep na patungong Punta, Santa Ana. Dito matatagpuan ang kanyang destinasyon. Matapos ang ilang minuto, may humintong jeep at siya ay sumakay dito.

II.

Mahaba-haba rin ang kanyang biyahe upang makarating sa may tulay. Sa Kalentong pa lang, tapat ng Marketplace ay dagsa na ang mga mamimili sa palengke. "Hindi kaya hassle pumunta roon?" tanong ng binata sa kanyang saril. "Bahala na, first time ko to doon pagkataon." Hirit nito sa kanyang sarili.

Bumaba siya sa isang complex bago dumating ng Gabby's ang jeep. Una niyang hinanap ang lugar, ngunit sa kasamaang palad, patay ang mga ilaw nito. Sa tabi ay may videokehan na may nagkakantahang mga GRO at mga tambay na mukhang katulong sa may pintuan. Ang kanyang hinahanap naman ay sarado, mukha atang nalugi na makaraan ang ilang buwan lang nitong pagbubukas.

Kaya't siya ay bumalik upang tumbukin ang ikalawa niyang target. Sa Kalentong rin ito ngunit sa kabilang dako naman. Sumakay siyang muli na jeep na magdadala sa kanya sa Shaw Boulevard. Makarating doon, siya ay naglakad ng kaunti upang sumakay muli ng jeep na magdadala sa kanya sa San Juan.

III.

Sa isang kanto, bago lumiko ang jeep. Napilitan siyang bumaba. Ang binata ay naglakad pa ng ilang metro at sa kanyang tapat ay bumulaga ang isang lumang bahay. Wala itong ilaw at pati ang sign nito ay nakapatay rin. Ikalawang beses na niyang pumunta rito kaya't kahit mukhang sarado ito pagdating sa labas, laging nakabukas ang pintuan nito para sa mga dayong katulad niya.

Ang binata ay tumawid. Hindi nito ininda ang nag-iinumang matatanda na nakatingin sa kanya, isang bahay ang pagitan mula sa kanyang pupuntahan. "Hindi kaya ma-boga ako dito?" Tanong niya sa kanyang sarili? "Sino ang tatawagan ko, sakaling lusubin ito ngayon gabi... bahala na, kelangan ko ng masahe." Sabi nito sa kanyang sarili.

Kaya't siya ay pumasok at naabutan pa ang ilang mga binatilyo na nagkwekwentuhan sa reception area. Ang lahat ay biglang tumayo at napatahimik sa kanyang biglang pagdating.

"Manong, magkano ho ulit?" Tanong niya sa mamang nakaupo sa lamesa. Ang ginoo ay matanda na, ngunit bakas sa kanyang mukha ang kasanayan sa biglang transaksyon na dala ng binata.

"P300" Sagot niya dito.

Matapos magkasundo sa presyo, agad tinuro sa dayo ang isang pader na gawa sa kahoy. Ito ay may maliit na butas kung saan ang binata ay kailangang sumilip at mamili ng magseserbisyo sa kanya. Mahigit pito ang nasa loob. Lahat sila ay nakatayo, mga seryoso at pilit na kinukuha ang atensyon ng binata - na magbabayad ng masahe nila pagdating sa taas. Para silang mga kabayo na ikakarera sa isang paligsahan. Ang iba ay nakasando - lalo na ang mga matipuno. Ang iba naman ay naka-tshirt. Mukha silang mga patpating mga bata na hinugot lang sa may kanto. Mayroong isa, halatang proud sa kanyang moreno at balingkinitang pangangatawan. Hindi man ito kasing bato-bato gaya ng sa iba. Sa kanyang porma pa lang, alam mo nang siya yung tipong mambabalibag sa kama.

Kung titingnan mo sila, para silang mga ordinaryong tambay sa isang skwater di malayo sa lugar. Hindi sila yung tipong nakwekwento sa mga forums o kaya naman ay pinagmamalaki sa mga magazine (maging jologs man ito). Tingin ko nga, ang ilan sa kanila ay maaring gumanap na sa mga "scandal" na binebenta sa Quiapo. Kumbaga, sinanay na sila ng panahon para sa ganitong kalakaran.

Wala pang isang minuto, nakapili na ang binata. Sa kanyang isipan, naglalaban kung kukunin ba niya yung kahawig ni Dominic Ochoa, o yung kaisa-isang barako na walang pang-itaas na suot. "Bahala na, trip lang naman ito." sagot niya sa kanyang sarili. "At least dito, walang personalan... masahe lang." Depensa nito sa kanyang gagawin. Mabilis ang mga sumunod na pangyayari. Nakatayo pa rin at pilit pa ring nang-eenganyo ang mga binata sa kabilang bahagi ng pader, samantalang ang receptionist naman ay halatang kinakabahan... Baka kako umatras ang dayong kliyente, wala na namang kita ang...

"Manong yung nakahubad sa dulo," Sabay biglang turo ng binata sa morenong balingkinitan na napansin niya na kaagad unang silip pa lang niya sa pader.

IV.

Umupo muli ang mga ibang nakatayo, ang napili naman ay nagsukbit ng tuwalya at inabot ang lotion at rubbing alcohol na nasa isang tokador sa tabi ng kanilang pintuan. Tahimik itong lumabas mula sa kanilang maliit na tambayan at inabangan ang binata na papalapit dito.

"Ikaw si James?" tanong ng binata.

"Opo sir," pangiting sagot naman nito. Ang kanyang mukha na ngayon ay gaya sa isang maamong pusa. Siguro dahil ay may kita... at posibleng extra na naman siya.

"Ayus... Ako nga pala si Jerson. Kinagagalak kitang makilala." Pakilala ng binata habang dahan dahan silang umaakyat ng hagdan na magdadala sa kanila sa mga aircon na kwarto sa itaas.

Newly uploaded songs in my iPod as of 07 May 2007

2007-05-06T18:43:00.000-07:00

Katharine McPhee - Over It
Alanis Morissette - My Humps
Bone Thugs N Harmony feat Mariah Carey & Bow Wow - Lil Love
Katharine McPhee - Not Ur Girl
Katharine McPhee - Love Story
Alanis Morisette - Dear Prudence
Katharine McPhee - Open Toes
Kavana - Special Kind Of Something
Lisa Loeb - I Do
Lisa Loeb - I Wish
Lisa Loeb - Fools Like Me
Lisa Loeb - Waiting For Wednesday
Lisa Loeb - Truthfully
Lisa Loeb - Stay (I Missed You)
Lisa Loeb - Do You Sleep?
Lisa Loeb - How
Lisa Loeb - Falling in Love
Nelly Furtado - Say It Right
Young Jeezy feat R.Kelly - Go Getta
T-Pain - Buy U A Drank (Shawty Snappin')
Rihanna feat Jay-Z - Umbrella
Fall Out Boy - Thnks Fr The Mmrs
Lloyd Banks feat Akon - My Town
Maroon 5 - Makes Me Wonder
Omarion - Ice Box
Lloyd - Get It Shawty
Bone Thugs N Harmony feat Akon - I Tried
Daughtry - It's Not Over
Ne-Yo - Because of You
Kaiser Chiefs - Ruby
Jennifer Lopez - Que Hiciste
Hinder - Lips of an Angel
Fall Out Boy - This Ain't A Scene, It's An Arms Race
Hinder - Better Than Me
The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Face Down
Lil Mama - Lip Gloss
Linkin Park - What I've Done
Lloyd feat Ashanti - Southside
Nelly Furtado - All Good Things Come To An End
Feist - My Moon My Man
MIMS - This Is Why Im Hot
Lisa Loeb - Let's Forget About It

I'm seeing Green

2007-05-05T06:46:00.000-07:00

no regret (후회 없음)

2007-04-26T10:30:00.000-07:00

here i go again...

i told my bestfriend that i was hitting the sack because of a tiresome day. but i stumbled upon this DVD i bought last weekend in downtown bangkok. it's called No Regret (Huhwihaji Anha). a Korean gay movie that centers on the love affair between a soon-to-be-married wealthy man and an escort.

whew! it was such a whirlwind--it blew me away!

this is (almost) the same feeling i got after i have seen Formula 17 (Taiwan) and Latter Days (US) last year. beautiful, beautiful story!

i have always wondered why there's such an upsurge of everything-Korean in every tellie in Asia; now i know it. Korean filmmakers (and actors) know how to make a simple plot go a long way... way way down your spine, legs (till it makes your knees weak) then soar up to your heart with a killer homerun.

whew!

truly, staying up this late for this kind of movie is absolutely no regret.

i hope you take this down as a recommendation. i suck at movie reviews. but when i make one, i have no regrets of suggesting. hihihihi

;-)

당신을 보십시오!

시계 " regret" 없음;!

Friendster Profile Bloopers

2007-04-24T11:01:00.001-07:00

This was just sent to me by one of my associates at work and I nor him did not spend hours on friendster collecting these. We are in no way connected to the person who came up with this. We just wanna advocate better English skills by showcasing the common mistakes that usually go unnoticed until some idle sould gets a crazy idea like this.
Funny but sad at how a lot of our countrymen are still under the shadow when it comes to wielding the English language. I can't blame them really, since we are in a third-world country. Just in case you know any of these people or they are in your network, if you care (and i dont!) message them or help them revamp their profile for chrisakes! But nonetheless, bad as it is, I'd like to laugh at their expense...so here they are:
**comments by the author in parentheses and the ones in bold...well you go figure.

Ayumi:
Occupation: studient
Companies: rockers companies!
Hobby: chating!!
wants to meet "pretty girls!! only!! hehes!!" (read this with
feelings. dapat may pauses ah. installment?)

-GEniE Lou-:
aBouT me???? (eh kailangan ba namang i-reiterate na about you ito??) A
persOn wHo is veRy conservative, have positive outlook in lyf, suMtyms i brEak pRomises dat can cause someone angry w/ me.... im (kinukulang siya lagi ng article ah) very productive person... everytime i do some task or deeds i will make a plan 1st b4 i go 4 it.
im very fond in listening 2 musizzzz
im da type of person dat tells frankly (ateh, sino si Frankly, best
friend mo?)

who i want to meet?????? so there it goes..... (kailangan nga talaga)
... ...
*a person dat can give advices 2 me f i want some support* *i mostly
hate person nga snobbish kaau*

jOnah-nUevE 'kikAy fOe RiL':
Companies: oN mAh hiStOry.. wYL i WAs On A mAll hOppiNg.. sUmvody GAve
mE A stArstruck fOrM... HAhA! itz kinDA wEiRD.... wAtZ uP wit dAt huH?
(what's up with YOU??)

-aNnA-:
MaArtE,SEnSItive,SuPlAdITa,FRiEnDly,fAshiOnIStA,KikAy, AtTraCtiVe
AnD EveRytHinG NiCE THaT Was Me!! (was?)
MaTaLinO (ThEReS No OnE IN THiS WoRLd hAs stUpId MiNDs) (you might
wanna reconsider...) mAaRte aKo PeRo InDi AkO mAlAnDE
---------------
jUZ
DOn'T EvEr jUdGe Me cOz yOu dONt mE aT AlL.... (karne?!) AND .....
YoU MuZ ReMEmBeR eVeRYtHinGs hAs a reAsONS.....
DoNt DArE mE COz YoU DoNt knOw wHaT CaN I dO (parang clueless ka din
e!) SoMe peopLe dOnT UnDErSTaNd WhAT Is my aTtItUde BUt dOnT JuDgE
aNyOnE........
i pRoTeCT my fRieNdS...aNd pRoTeCt YoUrs :)
---------------

catherine joyii:
Affiliations: Catholic (i know, i know, sawa na kayo dito! ako rin
naman!) "dont lyk pipol hu r very: PLASTIKS, pa EPAL, LIARS and anything na mga BAD ATTITUDE I like hu r vry gud....!!!
"and if u want me to ur friend, jaz aDD me uP"

alexandra rose sobida:
About Her: long hair, bolding eyes (huwaaaaat?!) , red lips and long
life (Amen!)

Who She Wants to Meet: a spiecial boy in my hole life forever and
ever (ayus!)

maria princesa:
caption ng picture: "am i look good"
Affiliations: An roman catholic
Favorite TV Shows: OPHRA (of-ra daw o! shet, tawang-tawa ako dito!)

About Her:
Me......... hmmmmmm ......
simple and always happy........
i know you've get it...........
(ano daw?)

wants to meet "somebody who has a sense of humor and simple gets"
(simple gets. humanap ka ng kausap, 'ne!)

lito:
Companies: wa lang. im just in the class room seating on my chair and flerting with gurls.......
TV Shows: Whos line is that? and teleseryes (nabitin sa title?) About
him: I am a 19 year old strait guy, and i love doing creative stuff and having fun.... entering personal relationships with girls and guys even gays is okey with me as long as they are mature and responsible enough to hundle a relationship. By the way!!! (shet, naninigaw siya!!!) before, i was against bisexual relationships en even sexual intercoarses (magaspang ba ito? sand paper? ) between same sexes, that was me before that memorable night happen to me when i was in 4th year highschool....

sa inyong pagbaybay sa kanyang fantasy land a.k.a friendster profile "about me" section, wag kaligtaang hanapin ang mga sumusunod na kataga:
boardmaits
permission to my parents
inerested
desided
leaking (as opposed to "licking")
niples (brand ba ito ng inumin? ay snapple pala. weeeh korni) stroakign
(mispelled "stroaking", by which he meant "stroking") saterday apartmen
doing our staff i realizes

lady biolente:
caption ng picture: "it's meh,panget koh d2 bat kya!!! hehehe" (
naku, bakit nga kaya???)
Occupation: collage student (wow! BA Collage ba yan? sana nag-fine
arts ka na lang para diverse tapos major in collage ka na lang.
hehehe)
Movie: the ant (sobrang natawa ako dito. The Ant? the queen and and
the solider ants...) About her: ahm.......about meeh!!!??? ATTITUDE?
kind,suplada minsan.. pro most of da tym mabait meeeh..., makulit,
lagi na nka-smyl ngaun... talented pa! i can dance. i can sing....i
can fly basta ba my wings, eh...he!he!he! OUTLOOK? syempre
maganda,noh! alangan nmn laitin k ang sarili koh...height koh? 5'3''
ASSET KOH? my legs sbi nila.... taken na meehh..........should i say
yes!? (NO!!! i-comprehend nyo nga yang mga pinagsusulat niya nang
mapalakpakan ko kayo.)

Geneveve:
Occupation: business women
Affiliations: business
Hobbies: watcing tv (watsing?)
About her: beutiful and honest
wants to meet... i want ta meet people is simple only (ha?????)

Jan 2, 2006
christopher:
Hobbies: lapping trip ( macho dancer ka ba?); tambay; sound trip;
gumala My Looks: punkiztah ( eh talaga bang kelangan yon?)

masaaki:
Affiliations: Governor (sabagay, pwede naman he's affiliated with the
governor... pero mali! maliiiiii!) Hobbies and Interests: play guitar
and to be band About Him:
cOoL...
taLL....
sMarT....
&
mO$t oF thaT tRuth LovEr..... (as in "mahal ang katotohanan" o "true
lover ba dapat?") ha..ha...ha....ha.....ha.....
eVerythiNgs'trUth ( words of wisdom from Masaaki. palakpakan.)

gummibear:
About Me:"im kaRReL.. iM a giRL hu oLweZ waNa b HappY buT jSt cnT b!
i cAn eiTHer b sEriouS oR siLLy... liBeraTed,,fuN..no worrieS..,, iM
a prActiCal woMan n I eiTHer (baka naman "I'd rather") Lose mY heArt dAN my bRaiNS.. (so which one did you lose? wehehe. clue nga!) it'S harD 2 piCk uP d piEceS oF my liFe..,, veRy comPlicaTed.. buT noT noW.. (ha???) i dNt bLiV iN dEsTinY>>> iM abouT reALiTy., uR liFE iS in uR hAnds//// so uR d 1 hu coMpLicaTe iT...."

maricel:
Occupation: looking a job (magandang career yan )
Hobbies: dancing, chatting, reading book, outting outdoors (so how do
you out outdoors? paturo naman!) Favorite Book: The Purpose Driven in
life
Music: fashions (maaari bang bigyang linaw ninyo kung anong nagaganap
dito?) About Me: i'm maricel.. who loves serving the Lord...i love dancing.. singing... going beaches... outings.. goin out.. window shopping..

Breeks:
Favorite Music: stay w/ cushe, the day u said gudnyt w/ hale, kahit
pa w/ hale again, specialy 4 u w/ MYMP, tell me y it herts (ilang
kilo Hertz iyan?) w/ MYMP again, love moves in mysteriuos ways w/
NINA ehehehe !!!! (kumanta ka kasama ng mga yan! Abisyosa!) About Me:
im a person n siryoso pro happy ksm en i dont like sa mga pipol n
plastik gus2 ko ung dldl ("daldal" pala to, akala ko kung ano. ..)
pro my sence ung cnsabi en real... im sure n mag kksundo tyo!!!
practically (hindi kaya "basically "?) i want pretty girls but
honestly i like mostly girls who are nice to accompany and not
malandi ...waaaaah i hope i cud fyn special one !!! (ayan ang epekto
ng masyadong paggamit ng text lingo. hindi mo na alam kung ano ang
tamang spelling dun sa hindi. hmpf.)

Anthony:
Affiliations: hardcore serial killer/frustrated assassin, computer
addict (hindi kaya "describe yourself" ang intindi niya dito?)
Favorite Movie: Harry Potter all the movies that were already shown
and including the one's that is still being made (wow, masyado kang
advanced.) Favorite Music: alternative, rock, mellow, pop, kahit ano
basta hale o cueshe (eto gusto ko lang commentan. Cueshe? ngiii.)
About Me: im just a person who sit's silently on one corner
(ipagpatuloy mo yan. it would be greatly appreciated.)

-pRettY cAng-:
Favorite Music: ACOUSTIC...reggea
"me?? im just a simple girl... hmmm... sometimes im othistic" ( ayun
na! basta yun na un!) "loves 2 eat but still sexy and i carry myself
very well with the way i look and the way i dress." ( sabi mo eh.)
"when it comes to my character, i reflect myself as a conforming one
because i have tested myself of doing things which anticipated to be
done." (nosebleed to...)

SheZzO GraniTy:
Hometown: AurOrA wEr CrimE iS OrGaniZeD En ThA RuLe 2 FoLLoW (is
what...)
Schools: sTa.cLarA wEr pLenTy oF mUrdErEr OccUrS
Affiliations: ThuG BaLLa bAbY oF kArEn rOsE About Me: i CamE FrOm a
SmaLL TowN wEr oL ThA GenGsTerS- kiLLahZ- DruG DeaLahZ- YounG bLoOdS-
LiVin aLonE AnD biG TyM SinDiCaTe ArE OcCurS (call your local police
station please)

Aug 22 - Aug 28, 2005
-lil LiZ-:
"rOcKeRz!! n pUnKz!!!! ASTIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" ( ayun na! ROCK SALT!)
Affiliations: tEnNaGe LiFe!! ( mali na nga, wrong spelling pa)
Favorite Movies: chukie 1 and 2 wants to meet "ANYONE. if ya want to
know more just sen me a message!!"

Aug 6 - Aug 12, 2005
-'kEiXi'-:
Hometown: nAVOetAst ( aaaahhh NAVOTAS! sus naman.) About Me: aqOuh??
( hindi!).. cHimPle LAng.. bUT cAn maKE yUr hEAd tURn,,
*HoTcHiC**sEXy dAw..cHAvii nG mGAh fWEnDz qEw( masyado kang
nagpapaniwala....).. sVi qEw nAMn.. mAdAnDa aqEw..
maArTE?/..sObra**hiHi.. nDi mHEii mAarTE.. kAla nYOuh lAng yUn,, kSHi
cHigURo .. yU fOUnd mE.. wEAriNg uNiqUe eAriNgs.. USing mAkEuP..
oWeYs lOoKing mY fACe in tHE miRRoR ( ahh ).. mAarTE bAh yUN? ( or
maybe because you type like that?) who i want to meet: "xA aCcoUnt
qEw..kHit cHiNU pwEde.. kHit ikA'y mUkhang (insert nouns here )..
tAtaNgAPEn kiTAh bsTAh bAH TEZti cOUh aAhh" (ayun na! testimonial
pala ang habol eh! may testimonial-writing competition na ba?)

**hindi ko inakalang dadaigin niya ang "aq" at "acoh".

PrEtty StEpS IV:
Affiliations: vOLLeYBaLL pLaYeR, cOLLeGe sTuDeNt, pARt tiMe MoDeL(iN
MAH dReaMZ), ChEEr DanCER & UR fRiEnDLiEsT nEiGhBoR iN ToWn......!!!!
(aba, why not?!) I wud nEver faLL again fOr soMeOne he's hEad oVer
heeLs wiTh (he? so you're into girls?) iN Comes To A rELATIONShIP I
am faiTHfuL aNd swEET I haTes aNd curSes pLayErs (naku matakot ka!) I
am eMoTioNaL, I lisTens to My mind buT I stiLL foLLows My heaRT
someone U Can tRUsT On THANK YOU FOR PATRONIZING MY FRIENDSTER
ACCOUNT LOVE YOU ALL (sheeet artista! love lots!)

-sTaY ovErLoaD-:
Hometown: TaGuiG..ThE FLazE To bEE..MaHoGanY (ayus!)
Occupation: boniFiEd and cErTiFied HeavEn ringEr..aLpha MaN..
(meaning....)
Affiliations: aFiLL-FuLL and ThuguFuLL..ThEY r grEaT jusT 4 onE nigHT
buT iM grEaT evErY nigHT!! (gets mo? ako hindi.)

Jean:
Companies: Schools (pwede naman..)
Affiliations: Cristianity (yun na!)
Who I Want to Meet: "be always respect the universal trademark clan
within the highest organization" (ha? ano raw?)

adora:
Companies: companies of CUTE PERSON
Favorite Movies: thombraider (ay panalo!) "ME...a simple GOD creature
(uhm... meaning??), a high climber & aggressive person (nyahahahaha ) , i want a new clothes, books.....(aba, naglagay ng wishlist !) some of my other descriptions are---->friendly, jealousy, cute, honest..."
"i love spaghetty" ( so do i. wahaha) Who I Want to Meet: A CUTE
PERSON..and i hate a person who has a BAD IMAGE like being ignored,
finishing second, hand-me-downs, waiting, LIAR, forgetfullnes, haste,
feeling ignorant, vulgarity, ugliness, being pressured, LOUD
ARGUMENTS & MAKING PROMISES.. (now i know why our teachers in English
taught us parallelism when we were in high school...)

giriz:
Affiliations: Bsta Nilalang sa EarTh pro luv c God "i like" play
badminton "My true name: Giriz Romanos" (meron bang fake?) "I was
born: in Earth!!!"
"I dont juge the book by its cover I read it first" (naku! May point
siya! Hahaha!)

May 10 - May 15, 2005
ooohweeeh gUl: (uso ang maiikling profiles ngayon)
Ms. "beat mah sexxy ass if u fwakin can"
About Me: "im juss a simple gul wit very naughty attitudes that guys might like and love"
Who I Want to Meet: "i want to meet different pips ho can carry dir
self very and has strong personality" (hay...)

Bhabes:
Affiliations: sana magkaroon ako ng boy friend n very gentleman, and caring person at igagalang k ng 22o.
Favorite Books: ..."a dauther is a forever"
Favorite TV Shows: amanda show, spongebob disney, rush hour 2,
parents trap, freacky friday basta ung nakakakilig na panoorin., ung
mga tpong png lovers only.ung nkakakilig (ay ewan ko sayo)

Jha:
Favorite Music: aLL e'M oF mUsIc As SoOn ThAt It's NoT iRrITaTe Me
(you irritate me....) About Me: !nSan3 Of NaTuRe: I liKe aLwAyS aN
aDvEnTuRe & ThriLL iN mAh LiF3 i NeVer LoSt ThAt cOz, I'm The On3 who
LoOk & FiNd FoR tHat B4 k!!! rYt nOw NOTHING!!! jUsT aN oRdInARy Mhe
(insane of nature.... obviously) Who I Want to Meet: who need to talk
to someone. (sana magkaintindihan kayo)

m E d Y FULL:
Favorite Books: lovHisToRy Of My SeLf by: The one who es YOu!!!!!
It's mE!! (eyngg?? ano yun?? High to!) About Me: "...i'm a simple person with a simple traits... dat's ol!"
Who I Want to Meet: "i want to meet ol of you, someone lyk you, whose
fun to be with... of coarse... YOU"" ( magaspang ka.)

Apr. 11 - Apr. 17, 2005
giselle:
Hobbies: "im fun of texting ... im fun of dancin, sleeping, eating
and singing and also fun of spending time with my frends" (what a FUN person you are!) ay ganun din ang fave books nya. "i'm fun of"
"i want to make friends to all the pipol in the world!!! .... i want
to meet pipol who is friendly and jam to be with!!" (ay diyos na
mahabagin! )

Gtonjethone:
"Don't let my looks fool you! Im a EDUCATED FOOL w/ PARTIES, DISCO
AND GAMES in my MIND!" (!!!!! aba combo meal ka nyan?) "...Sometime i
go further till 6 or 7am ..." (akala ko ba further?) "I want a long hair! So i can copy my sitmates answer w/out being seen by my teacher!"
"I love ANEMI FANATICS like myself!" (ANEMI fan daw eh!)

Mar. 30 - Apr. 3, 2005
cOmWiZgiRL VII:
"iM a siMpLe girL!prO mnSn rAkiZtA oUtfit aQ!" (tsss kayo ang
nagbababa ng kahulugan ng pagiging rocker!) "Luk mtrAy at chUpLaDa dw
cHAbi nG mGa kpitbhy nMin" (what's w/ the "ch-"? ayyy may nahihinuha ako. censored!) "d aQ mAartE!(pWerA LnG iF tiNO2pAk aQ!)" -- lagi ka tinotopak ano?
wants to meet "ung mga nkanursing na uniform. (i duNnO y, maybE tHey nEat)" -- ay "they neat"? admission test?

tEtHeN:
Hobbies and Interests: cmPle Lng...bOys..bOys...and bOys...bSta lOt
oF boYs... (the essence of kapokpokan) Favorite Books: ..y U mAkE me
fiL xo gAga Ba wiD yaH..!!!???!! (hala, ano yun?) "dMIng KOng lAit sA
mgA cHakA...wAhekS" (ako, daming lait sa mga di marunong magtype ng
maayos) wants to meet someome "tO bE mY crYinG sHoulDer aNd mY
stRenGht" (sinong may crying shoulder?)

raceL:
"its been a long time since i involved in a relationship" (uhm... how
sad?) "so pls hands off if ur just playing on me..." (aysus, style
mo!!) "You can always here me sharing my opinions to others" (here?)
"During my past-time, i browse and browse internet..." (addict)
friends: "as long as we clicked each other's company...that's fine
with me" (how do you do that? may switch? wehehe) "Some says I'm a
masungit" (ay. this is it.)

Mar. 15 - Mar. 21, 2005
kleeny: (wow hanep sa pangalan, parang tissue. masingahan nga.)
Companies: Not Yet. (o wag daw muna! Atat ka e!) Favorite Books: All
Books as long as there are sense about LOVE (teka di ko macomprehend)
"U will enjoy my company...I assure you 4 that" (ay, FOR THAT,
featured ka dito) "I have a long curly Hair & my friends said that i
have a cute chinese eyes!!" (ay match!) "Want to Meet? Whoever,
whatever as long as they are Good & Respected People. I like a
Persons who are Triple S stands for SIMPLE, SWEET & SINCERE..." (wow
ayus ang prinsipyo a. pwede gumawa ng libro)

shanlee:
Affiliations: socialization (somebody start defining affiliations)
"easy to belong with specially to those people hu r nice too"

Mar. 7 - Mar. 15, 2005
Maricar:
Affiliations: cosmetics (this part never fails to amaze me) Hobbies
and Interests: ...making friends globally (ay Ms Friendship!)
"sometime I can't hide 'the child in me'." (hide it, please) "I
firmly believe that 'The way to A Man's Heart is Through His Stomach'
thats why i like winning my man by preparing him delicious and
nutritious food." (so how many times have you done that already?) Who
I Want to Meet: I want him to be HIMSELF!!!!! (who?! buti di mo
sinabing "i want to be HIMSELF")

jAcMuZiKaDiK-V:
fave music: i DiG aLm0Zt oL KiNdZ gez m so versatile. (ay,
versatile? hahaha)
"im s0o0o0o0 REAL...thts foe meh!!" (foe meh, yoe not) "sounds
COINCEITED but m not!!"
"i dnt have d ASS( w/c most of d guyz dig n2)..." (shet, dig INTO?!
aray!)

Feb. 21 - Feb. 27, 2005
JeAn:
"my friend call me roni for short but to make it long call me roni-jean"
she "can be please easily" & "know how to deal wth diff.type of
person(even d tambay i can deal wth dem)" <-the perfect friend for the tumana boys "vulgar...i can say wt i wnt....even its not gud in ur ear..."

Collen May:
I am Ms. Personality and Ms. Congeniality (ibig sabihin, hindi
kagandahan) daw with long black straight hair and morena. (black hair
and... morena?!) I am friendly in school (especially with the
teachers - kailangan eh...di naman sipsip - friendship lang)and even
the alumni people!!! Kasi some of them are my neighbors. I love
wearing and accesorizing clothes to make myself beautiful...:-)
(nagwork naman ba?) hello...joke lang po! They say i walk like a
model or just pretending to walk like one but its the way i walk,
really it's the truth and nothing but! (nothing but...)

Daryl:
"me?? im ayl hndi mganda pro SEXY!hehehe.. pangit pro MATALINO. hndi
kgandahan pro MABAIT..." (ipinagdiinang pangit siya)

Aaron:
"Ahhhhhhmmmmm!!!!! just add me to your friend.... If you really wanna
know about mee!!!!!, but just an impression, im not gonna be what you expect" (hindi ka naman hyper nyan?) he wants to meet "Anyone whos not very self concieted and most of all friendly!!!"

wilmar:
"im a true freind that im willing to fight my friends ( true friend
nga!) ,sometimes she can be rude if you want to and she really hates
plastic person ( sino si she?!) .im prank very prank (aysus! ) and if
i hates i tell it to them para hinde nila masabi na im so beas." ( in
fairness, consistent siya sa "freinds") (ano ang beas?)

Jan. 31 - Feb. 6, 2005
tThHaaALyN:
Affiliations: meeting different kind of people...=> those people who
i can easily asses myself with...=D (huh?!) Hobbies and Interests: people who's fun to be with and interesting...
...have mood swings too...wen provoked !! (hala, when provoked! aso
ka?) im a different type of girl... not the one that u always
encounter wid!! (naku, dinagdagan pa ng "with" kasi eh!) "want 2
mit?? well does people who's please to mit me 2!!!" (di ko talaga
gets to!)

Jan. 24 - Jan. 30, 2005
Princess:
Affiliations: im friendly and everything:) (goodness....) im fund of
music... (fund? ahh edi ibig sabihin mayaman ka? hehehe) "i want
to... build a Europian school here in the Philippines" ( mayaman
nga....) Who I Want To Meet: "im open for all..." (7-11, Ministop?)

'marlaX':
"mah hair s quite long and sleek wit a bang" (pumuputok? happy new
year!) "i hv ds pierce on mah upper left ear" (sinong pierce yan?)
"kaya pls lng wlang poporma at wag mgbalak manligaw dto!" (ui,
dropping hints! style mo!)

Jan. 17 - Jan. 23, 2005
Jas:
Motto: If there's a will, There's a will... (been there been that!)
Favorite Day: Everyday
J - jesus
A - almighty
S - savior
hehe di talaga pinatawad yung bata.

Arvie Jan:
"ako ang nag-inspired kay Boy Abunda sa fassion."
"because relationship comes and go but friendship is forever!!!
ininglish pa yun!!!" (proud pa a!)

Joel:
all of you are welcome in my friendster... even if you are a
girl,boy,lesbian,gay,hunk,or naugthy...or either you are a bisexual
or trisexual... (at basahin nyo na ang "english" profile dahil YUN NA
YUN.)

Jan. 1 - Jan. 16, 2005
beware:
"so kung feel mo akong maging friend, take the risk! face all the
hardships and danger... hu knows? baka dun mo makita ang kasiyahan na
hindi mo pa nadarama sa buhay mo.." (aba, beware talaga. i'm telling
you, beware...)

riechell:
"mahilig sumali sa contest at pagent at nag-hahakot ng awards tulad
ng sports wear at specially ang miss. photogenic" (check out her
pictures muna... not for the weak hearted....)

(diba ang mga nananalo ng ganyan eh yung mga hindi naman talaga maganda
pero dahil sa awa, binigyan na lang din ng award. isa pa, ang mga miss
photogenic awards ay kadalasang matatawag ring "sana larawan ka na
lang" award.)

Dec. 20, 2004 - Jan 1, 2005
missey:
sayang inalis niya yung picture na ang caption ay "aM i l0ok pReEty???"
"ndi ako mxdong mgling sa math but i assuring na papasa aQ... ndi rin
aQ mgling sa english..." (ay halata nga) "mhilig din aqng mag Api ng
tAong wlang kmalay mlay!" (now you're it) and "you're free to add
yourself" (wekekeke!)

Dec. 13 - Dec 19, 2004
mitch:
"hi to all of you i want to have friends like you just chat me if you want too"
"i grew up in manila then i go to usa for vacation" (talaga lang ha,
halatang halata...) "im a shy lady when it comes for boys" (hahaha!
Laking states ito! Wohoo!!!)

ging:
Affiliations: wala lang!!!!!life rocks!!!!!!!!!! (ang tanong e
affiliations!!)
Companies: sa hang-out lang ako ng tropa ko.... (o diba 2-in-one)

kate:
who i want to meet: "speacilly who can understand me in all the time
mabait,sweet..." [speacilly? Kelangan mo nga ng makakaintindi
sayo....]
Companies: "mag aral nd mag cutting sa boring na subject....." [kung
dati, affiliations ang tinitira namin, companies naman ngayon]
Schools: "p.gomez nd arellanong morge" [ui totoo ba to, "morge"?]

lucky:
"kung sweet ka ,,e di tayo na..if you want,,,....."(.... Okay.....)

Nov. 23-28, 2004
Blue X (hiphop reprezent)
"ako ung taong tahimik pero sweet lovers" ( driver ka hijo?) "..about
my talent i can dance,artist.." ( teka, paulit. anu raw?) campus hunk
siya kuno. kaya ang pix, hindi papakabog! the primary pic: may-i-gamit-the-egg whites effect; isama ang sinukat na hati sa gitna ng bangs. ye.
and of course...wag natin palampasin ang pix ng barkada... the salbakuta extension! so kelangan talaga naka-jersey and cap combi kayo? and don't forget the gangstah signs na marahil ay wis nyo alam ang kahulugan. teka, nakita na namin kayo!! kayo yung rugby boys sa philcoa diba? wag magkaila... halata sa porma!

Elaine:
"do you like listening musics? how about swit musics and rocks? ( anu
raw, bato?) by the way, it's good meeting new peaple . (pinya ba yun?

Newly uploaded songs in my iPod (as of 22 April)

2007-04-22T04:31:00.000-07:00

Oh Timbaland
Give It To Me
Release
The Way I Are
Bounce
Come & Get Me
Kill Yourself
Boardmeeting
Fantasy
Scream
Miscommunication
Bombay
Throw It On Me
Time
One & Only
Apologize
2 Man Show

That's Right
Like A Boy
The Evolution Of Music
Promise
I Proceed
Can't Leave 'Em Alone
Crush
My Love
The Evolution Of Dance
Make It Last Forever
Bang It Up
Get Up
The Evolution Of Fashion
Get In, Fit In
The Evolution Of C
So Hard
I'm Just Me
I Found Myself
Addicted
Promise (Go And Get Your Tickets Mix)

Beautiful Liar
Irreplaceble
Green Light
Kitty Kat
Welcome To Hollywood
Upgrade U
Flaws And All
If
Get Me Bodied (Extended Mix)
Freakum Dress
Suga Mama
Deja Vu
Ring The Alarm
Resentment
Listen
World Wide Woman
Check On It
Amor Gitano
Beautiful Liar (Remix)

[Disc 1]
Overture
Better The Devil You Know
In Your Eyes
White Diamond
On A Night Like This
Shocked / Spinning Around
Temple Prequel
Confide In Me
Cowboy Style
Finer Feelings
Too Far
Red Blooded Woman / Where The Wild Roses Grow
Slow
Kids

[Disc 2]
Rainbow Prequel
Somewhere Over The Rainbow
Come Into My World
Chocolate
I Believe In You
Dreams
Burning Up / Vogue
The Loco-Motion
I Should Be So Lucky / The Only Way Is Up
Hand On Your Heart
Space Prequel
Can't Get You Out Of My Head
Light Years / Turn It Into Love
Especially For You
Love At First Sight

so ganito yun....

2007-04-19T21:08:00.000-07:00

dec-29. na-meet ko si boylet sa isang coffee gathering ng friends. may nag-invite sa akin sa isang birthday party ng isang friend, so sumama ako, then sumama rin sya nung niyaya ko. kahit may pupuntahan siya at hindi naman niya kilala si friend. i liked him that same night. bright, meaningful eyes, shy-type, matangkad na moreno, although slender not muscular body. very ordinary, pero sooooper soft-spoken, mabait and gentleman ever...

dec-30. may party ang bading group namin. daming um-attend. 170 members yata, so sobrang gulo sa party and everything. may friend ako na ex ng superfriend ko. si superfriend ko, kasama ko sa party, along with other friends. hetong friend ko na ex ni superfriend naman ang katabi ko sa kabilang side.

so itong si friend, nung nakita si boylet ko, tumabi sa akin. ibinulong nya "...uy date kami mamaya nyan ni boylet..."

e itong friend ko, hindi nya alam na BETter days ko nga si boylet, so deadma lang ako. around 1 am, nagpaalam na si friend ko na aalis na raw sya... at kasama nya si boylet ko, hayyy...

ang boylet ay di naman masasabing bakla-ero. the matter is, hindi nya alam na BETter days ko nga sya.

lumipas ang araw, nagtetext kami ni boylet, pati ni friend. although mas madalas si boylet--something like "patikim ng luto ko, pasyalan raw nya ako, superbait ko daw at masayang kasama..." yung mga ganun. e nakakatunaw na yun sa akin mare.

then a week passed.

hindi ako tyope neng, di ba, nagbago na ako?

one day lang ang pagitan. di naman ako pwedeng magpropose nung gabing nag-meet kami, baka sabihin nya makati girl ako, no.

so akala ko the night after the first meeting pwede ko nang sabihin.

e itong friend ko pala, may date factor na agad. leche talaga.

anyway...

jan-5. friday ulit. nagkita-kita na naman kami sa coffee gathering. late ako as usual kasi may kachika pa akong baklang sosyal sa greenbelt. itong boylet, tinatanong kung nasaan ako, dahil nasa glorietta lang daw sya. e sabi ko, nasa greenbelt lang ako, may kausap.

sabi nya sasabayan raw nya ako papunta sa coffee-han para may kasabay ako ever. mga one hour pa nya akong hihintayin. so ok lang naman daw sa kanya.

after a while, nagtext ulit sya. sabi nya, bigla daw dumating si friend ko sa glorietta. nalaman na nandun sya. kaya sila na ang magkasabay. zero na naman ako.

neng, di pa doon natapos. heto na ang punchline.

nung dumating ako sa coffee-han, kasama ko ang isa kong superfriend, nandun na sila ni boylet.

hala, at super-salubong ang boylet--nag-so-sorry nang palihim, may payakap-yakap pa, dahil di raw sya natuloy sunduin ako. sabi ko, ok lang, alam ko naman na may kasama rin sya talaga.

at nandun nga yung friend ko. kasama nya. di ko naman pwedeng isnabin kasi close din kami nun. so gow lang ako with the flow. hayan, umaatikabong chikahan na naman among gayfriends.

after a while, nasarili ko ulit si boylet--after 2 hours yata yun. tinatanong ko sya, kung like na sya si friend ko. di nya ako masagot! dami daw nyang iniisip. nakakaloka!

sabi ko, tinatanong ko lang kung like nya, dami agad sinabi. kesyo ganun, kesyo ganito. pinilit ko. sabi nya may like din daw sya. pero like nya rin si friend ko.

e di syempre, iniisip ko kung ako yung like nya. pero since SIYA ang tyope, di nya masabi sa akin. di ko nama kayang magtapat. dahil friend ko nga ang kalaban ko.

so doon na lang muna...

after that moment, nagkayayaan pumunta sa malate. heto na. itong superfriend ko, pinilit na magkasama kami sa taxi (kasi wala nang car, hahaha) nitong si boylet at friend ko.

di talaga ako nagsasalita sa taxi. nagtataka tuloy itong iba naming kasabay. anong gagawin ko? alangan namang magkunwari ako da va?

12:30am, nasa malate na ang mga bakla. nagsidatingan na rin ang mga friends na iba, so halos kami lang ang nasa buong 2nd floor ng chelu. parang private party.

tumabi sa akin si boylet. tinatanong kung bakit raw wala akong kibo. sabi ko tired lang ako. ( o di ba, very cinematic ang linya ko?)

maya-maya, si friend naman ang tumabi. ganun din ang itinatanong. neng, ang isinagot ko: "kuya, (talking to the cute waiter), bigyan mo naman ako ng 2 shots of bailey's on the rocks."

deadma na ako. kasi naiinis na ako sa mga pangyayari.

tungga si bakla.

tungga ulit. one after another. as in sabi ko sa kuyang waiter, keep it coming.

ang gugulo na naming lahat. tapos itong couple (boylet+friend ko), di masyadong chumichika. yun pala, itong nsi boylet nakatingin sa akin. itong friend ko, nakatingin naman sa katabi ko--yung ex nya na superfriend ko, hahaha!

kaya naloka ang lahat ng tao! iilan lang ang may-alam about me and the boylet, pero lahat ng tao alam about my superfriend and his ex. kaloka ang mundo! ang ginawa namin ng superfriend ko, pinakita namin na nag-uusap kami at nagtatawanan ang everything.

one moment, lumabas si superfriend ko. bumili ng yosi. maya-maya, lumabas din si ex nya na friend ko. nagchikahan yata sila sa labas. hahaha!

e di naiwan kami ng mga friends and the boylet.

nilapitan niya ulit ako. sabi nya, sana huwag akong masyadong maglasing, kasi baka wala akong kasabay pauwi. sabi ko, ok lang, wala naman talaga akong kasabay forever. forever and ever.

then sabi ko, umalis na sya sa tabi ko. baka dumating na ang jowa nya. ayaw nya, dahil di raw nya jowa yun. ka-date lang nya.

nakakaloka. sabi ko, ano ba ang pagkakaiba ng ka-date sa jowa? e syempre lasing na ako kaya wala na akong sense magsalita masyado. sabi nya malaki raw. pwede raw syang mag-date ng kung sinuman, pero iba pa rin ang gusto nya. sabi ko, e bakit hindi nya i-date yung gusto nya? sabi nya, natatakot raw sya.

hala!

then bumalik na ang mag-ex. siguro tapos nang mag-usap. mga 3am na nun, ayoko na talaga. kasi si boylet, hindi na iniintindi ang kasama nya. sa akin na lang palagi nakatingin. sa akin lang nakikipag-usap. naiinis ako. ayokong magkaroon ng something. paalis na ako, e. friend ko pa yung involved.

sabi ko sa lahat, uuwi na ako. kasi sobrang dinudugo ang dibdib ko. nagulat ang lahat, hahaha! pero di na sila nakaimik dahil umalis agad ako. sinundan ako ng 4 other friends ko. inihatid ako sa baywatch tower. kasi nga lasing na ang bakla.

pagdating namin sa bahay, para akong lukaret. hahaha! as in!

neng, after an hour, nang mahimasmasan ako, tinext ko si boylet. sinabi ko talaga lahat. gusto kong tawagan sya, kaya lang, kasama pa nya si friend ko. sinagot nya ako ng:

"im flattered, very happy and very overwhelmed. i don't know what to say. i know im not as goodlooking as you. kaya natakot akong sabihing i like you. but here you are, ikaw pa nagsabi that you like me. if only i could turn back the time. i'd rather have you..."

di na ako nagreply. natulog na ako.

Family Problems

2007-04-15T21:54:00.000-07:00

Two men, one American and an Indian were sitting in a bar drinking shot after shot.

The Indian man said to the American,"You know my parents are forcing me to get married to this so called homely girl from a village whom I haven't even met once.

We call this arranged marriage.I don't want to marry a woman whom I don't love...I told them that openly and now have a hell lot of family problems."

The American said, " Talking about love marriages?... I'll tell you my story.

I married a widow whom I deeply loved and dated for 3 years.

"After a couple of years, my father fell in love with my step-daughter and so my father became my son-in-law and I became my father's father-in-law.

My daughter is my mother and my wife my grandmother.

More problems occurred when I had a son. My son is my father's brother and so he is my uncle. Situations turned worse when my father had a son. Now my father's son I.e. My brother is my grandson.

Ultimately, I have become my own grand father and I am my own grandson.

And you say you have family problems.. ? !

G4M United To PGB

2007-04-13T18:43:00.000-07:00

Saan tayo magsisimula?

Tanda ko pa, kaya nabuo itong United eh sa kadahilanang naging mainit ang pagtanggap ng mga PLU bloggers sa kaisa-isang blog-thread sa G4M. Upang magkaroon ng common blog (at networking na rin) ang lahat ng miyembro nitong thread na ito, nagkasundo ang mga founders na bumuo ng isang blog at i-post dito ang mga piling entries mula sa home-blogs ng mga miyembro nito.

Nitong nakaraang araw, napadpad dito si Miggs ng Manila Gay Guy, upang imbitahan tayo na sumali sa listing ng mga Pinoy Gay Blogs. Ito'y isang imbitasyon. At bilang mga PLU na galing sa G4M, tingin ko ay nararapat tayong sumali dito - kung hindi man natin nais na mismong mga blogs natin ang ilista natin doon.

Ito'y isang suhestyon lamang. Nasa blog admin pa rin ang desisyon kung tayo ba ay magpapalista o hindi. Ang dapat na lang nating gawin ay i-add ang http://pinoygayblogs.com and http://manilagayguy.com sa ating blog roll at mag-iwan ng comment dito.

Unuulit ko lang, ito ay isang suhestyon pa lamang. Ang post na ito ay maaring pagusapan ng ng mga miyembro ng blog na ito. :)

Masakit Na Kurot...

2007-04-09T14:47:00.000-07:00

paminsan minsan, sa hindi sinasadyang pagkakataon,
mayroong mga bagay, o pangyayaring, magpapaalala sa yo ng nakaraan,
parang isang pinong kurot na pilit nagpapamumbalik ng sakit...

kanina lang sa shoutout ni ron sa friendster nabasa ko sabi nya....

"i wish i can make you love me again..i know it would be very selfish of me to do that..so im letting you go for you to find your happiness..but i want you to know that when you see yourself alone, ill be in the same spot where you left me.."

bigla ako natulala, ilang minuto rin yun, parang di ako makahinga,
masakit ang alaala dala, mahirap maipag kaila, pilit na nanunuot,
pero wala akong magawa, kungdi magmura...

tang-inang kurot yan... masakit pa rin pala!

Easter...

2007-04-08T07:55:00.000-07:00

Woke up at eleven-ish and started to work on chores that have been pending the night before… did laundry tidied up the house. It doesn’t feel so empty when it’s clean actually. J had hotdogs and yakisoba for lunch, alex had corned beef on rice and chloe her usual cat food in cold water. She’s out on the terrace chillin’ to the cool easter Sunday breeze watching the kids outside play badminton from her li’l cage. Alex has been noisy barking all day asking to be lat out and walked. Me? I just had a bottle of ice cold beer and chips by the front door as I wrapped up my chores and readied to meet the cold easter night that is looming behind the sunset. Lola is still in the hospital getting well under the guard of my li’l brother. And I feel just relaxed. It has been a while since I had the house all to myself. And honestly I prefer it like this. Quiet. No one talking just the sounds that me, alex and chloe makes. I’m currently listening to nina’s album via winamp and I’m prepping to get my long cold shower and just lay back and watch the night pass over to Monday as I ready myself to yet another week of work.

if time is God...

2007-03-28T07:56:00.000-07:00

then...

we would all have our guardian angels on our wrists telling us He's always there with us all the time.

we would always be reminded of our 'waking hours' in those alarm clocks we put beside our beds every night, telling us He will always be there when we need Him.

He would be the bundy clock in the office so we would not be late, like we don't want to be late to hear the priest's sermon at a mass.

we would have all the our altars at home, called the clock, to remind us that He is at home, all the time.

that alarm sound on our mobile phones or computers would be His way of reminding us it's about time to look at Him and say 'thank you for reminding me.'

telling our age would not be a problem; it would only say how long we have been living with God.

that Big Ben in London (or the one in Manila's City Hall) would be the Londoner's (or Manileno's) patron saint.

that timer on your iPod (or Media Player) would tell you how long each Gospel song is.

that timer on Mr. Treadmill would be your guide to see those 'footprints in the sand.'

that even though we have our different names for our God (be it rolex, boucheron, patek, etcetera), we will always be telling the same Time.

that even though we live on different time zones, there is always 12 midnight and 12 noon on our watches and clocks.

(just a thought, just a thought...)

...and if Time exists, so does Space...

they cannot be separated.

duality. balance. yin-yang.

Heto! The Survey Said!

2007-03-21T21:43:00.000-07:00

Filipinos have affection for social surveys the same way they have fondness for astrological predictions.

Surveys to them are present reality. Predictions are the inevitable future. There are no past to compare, because history itself is of no resonating value. (If it does I won’t be scribbling this. We won’t have Kris Aquino for a show!)

Surveys are like junk foods. You can actually live without it. Same is true to our politicians.

Note:

This is in response to the latest SWS Survey saying that Filipinos are hungrier than before. It reminded me of other survey saying the Filipinos have grown poorer.

Of course you are poorer; ten years ago you are single. You whimpering bitch! (Alright so you are a guy: Bastard!)

Also early morning yesterday, Arnold Clavio said in this morning magazine show, one time he went to a fishing village in Leyte. The children he carried in his arms weighs like the characters only found in weight watcher’s dreams. Given the season when fishes were scarce. Beside their mothers have mobile phones..

What the fuck is goin’ on here?
Asking for shoes when you got no feet.
To hell will all those surveys.

“Church of the Poor” of the Philippines

2007-03-21T21:32:00.000-07:00

"Church of the Poor"

I saw this ad line in Guadalupe today; to me it is ostentation of charity.

Where are the poor? I don’t know. For sure they cannot be found in Catholic schools--institutions of learning of the “church people” (of the poor) exclusive only to the rich.

Are the poor created for the church then? And where the hell is the church for the rich anyway? I hope there is no temple for the super rich? Oh! Oh but I exactly know where is the church for the politician.

So why use “church of the poor” hah?

Hay putek bad thinking talaga naman oo!

Poverty is not educating oneself to become comfortable but unlearning “how to be deprived of satisfaction.” *

*Of course it is just me.

Old and Rusted

2007-03-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

originally written - December 8, 2006 11:50pm

a while back, while in a cab to work
my friend patrick & i was texting:

pat: e kaw, kamusta naman dyan?
me: oki pa rin, toxic sa work as always
pat: ganun ba. e ang puso mo?
me: i dont have a heart, i just have a dick and a future to focus on, in life you can’t have everything

then after pressing send i started to slump on my seat
deep inside i felt very bad, my response seems to feel so real
for it was the first thought out of my mind…
sobbing inside, i got no more tears to shed…

i felt bad…. i felt hopeless…

yesterday was my one of my bestfriend’s 1st year death anniversary
i was with my ex when we visited his grave lunchtime
a lot has happened to me this past year after his passing…

for one i got promoted, something that i can only dream of, 5 years ago
it’s a four year climb to the top and am very proud… am very happy…
happiness that now proved too short to remember.

they say the higher you go up, the lonelier it gets…
true enough after a while, the usual stuff that made me happy
doesn’t seem enough anymore… i became restless and bold
i started experimenting, i started deviating,
now i can't recognize myself anymore...

maybe because i got no one…
the 3 most important guys in my life i cant reach...
1 died, 1 is busy, 1 is just miles away…
now i got no one else...

i was always on the watch out for the right one,
i pretended to be tough but deep inside i was cramming…
maybe because i know i need the right one to straighten out my life,
the right one before i become irreparable…

why is it everytime I get to meet someone I really like…
everytime i decide to allow myself to fall…
everytime i decide to make myself vulnerable…
…something stupid always happens

maybe it’s karma… yeah maybe it is…
for i had my share of mess ups and shame…

contrary to what i texted patrick….
my heart is the most important and overused part of me
it has gone through tough times…
mangled, smudged, squeezed, ambushed, stressed,
burned, stabbed and left for dead
resuscitated, revived, restarted and rebooted a couple of times.

now it has come to a point it can no longer take anymore shit
hardened with grief and pain but still beating with the last remaining hope
only good news is, its still got time for one more…
only one more…

life must go on, now am setting my heart aside…
resting, old and rusted…
but its still here… just waiting for its last user
the one with the correct login name and password…

Sexy-Time

2007-03-18T00:15:00.000-07:00

Initiating anti-libido protocol: workstation sequence override

1. Pause activity. breathe deep. think of nasty thoughts.

2. Do a kambyo... make sure to wash hands after.

3. If kambyo will not work, one needs a little gentle squeezing. make sure to wash hands after.

4. If squeezing doesn't work. Go to g4m. Harass the guys posting in the sex forums. Make sure to exude an image of a nasty hornydog.

5. Wait for a private message. Harass the guy who dares to send you a privy at this very tense moment. If possible, convince the prey to go online so you can harass him freely on IM.

6. If such possibility is not available, request the team leader to allow you to log on to the adult chat account. Vent frustrations at work.

7. If such option is not available. Pursue G4M harassment method. SONNET* optional. Manual and deliberate stroking strictly prohibited.

8. When critical threshold is imminent, log off from IM. Take a yosi break. Take a leak.

--

Ang buhay tigang... lahat pagtritripan.

*sonnet - sex on chat/net

Accident-free Highways

2007-03-16T08:46:00.000-07:00

I've been asking this to a lot of my friends for some time now and one of them suggested that I post it online. Anyway, here goes.

Suppose you were a president of a nation (or monarch of a kingdom, or emperor/empress of an empire, wherever you live) Now, suppose, too, that a mage (I prefer sorcerers but "mage" was the first word that popped into my mind back then) approached you and offered you the following:

1. He will cast a spell that will affect your entire nation.
2. The effect of the spell is that it will prevent all vehicular accidents from ever occurring.
3. For an entire year's absence of accidents, there will be exactly one vehicular accident each year involving at most two vehicles.
4. In exchange for a "peaceful" year (motor accident-wise), the aforementioned annual accident will always result in the most morbid gruesome deaths for the people unfortunate enough to be involved in it. (Limbs thrown around, head, shoulders, knees and toes, you get the picture)

The question is, will you accept the offer? (Oh please, suspend your beliefs for the moment, the point is not the existence of actual mages or the effectiveness of spells) And as a side note, will it make any difference if your entire nation knew of your decision or not?

So far, almost everyone I knew refused the offer.

There was one inclined to accept the offer but, upon finding out that her decision will be broadcasted to the nation, she backed out and said never mind.

How about you guys? ^_^

Oh, by the way, the spell is only applicable to land vehicles.

300 -- testosterone, gore, and more testosterone!

2007-03-10T08:08:00.000-08:00

oh, oh, oh!

i nearly ejaculated (no pun intended, just the truth) when i saw this movie last night at Siam Paragon.

whoah! you should have seen me dropped my jaw in awe and libido upon seeing those ripped and hot hot HOT HOT hot hot Spartan warriors clad in those red-cape-and-leather-looking-trunks!

oh!

aside from the fact that the creators of Sin City (which, you all know, is infamous for its gory scenes) produced this film about the epic Battle of Thermopylae between the massively-war-trained mere-300 Spartans, led by Leonidas, against the massively-numbered Persians, led by Xerxes I, this film did a great job at making each scene in varying textures, colors and effects.

the scenes might have been too easy (well, for trained filmmakers, nonetheless) to shoot against a nice chroma in a state-of-the-art VFX studio, but they really made impressive, larger-larger-larger-than-larger-than-life effects and gory gory gory depiction of EACH kill.

you'll even enjoy how the director, zack snyder (who directed Dawn of the Dead in 2004) and writer kurt johnstad (truth or consequences), managed to throw in punchlines here and there, amidst all that gore of war and the ooooooooozing testosterone emanating from each hot-bodied hunk-of-all-meat Spartan warriors.

i wonder if no one ever turned gay if all the Spartan warriors were like that. well, they're ancient Greeks for one, so homosexuality would not have been a taboo, yeah? and im speaking on past tense, of course!

well, i guess the Spartan politicians were the the ones who turned out to be gay, because all they did was sit in the Council and watch their ripped warriors do the dirty job, while they wait in their fortresses for their hunky-meaty men to arrive from all those battles fresh with blood on their hands and massive shields, and give them a watm bath and all hahahaha.

wait...

how come i was able to consume a lot of space here just to tell you i nearly came with just watching 300?

har har har har har!

don't you all think it's time for you to see it, too?

shoot me if you'll not drool.

note: checkout for the actors who played Stelios (michael fassbender), Astinos (tom wisdom) and Xerxes (rodrigo santoro)

framed by the neon lights

2007-03-08T20:26:00.000-08:00

You don't look as if you get tired of breaking your heart over and over again.

Never once I've seen your soul severed. You've followed all the instructions of love, you've waited too long, and no tear was cried yet all your chances—none of them spared you from what should be a sincere devastation. I don't think it's funny to find you and myself in the same crossroad together.

You look at me as if you can read minds and tell me how you felt the same way for me; the only difference is that I have broken doors of steel, that I've have fight with time and drained my eyes.

I never like you in an instant though everyone said you're handsome most of the them find you disarming. I guess I'm not going to like you anyway.

You are sands in my palms and for another time I'll blame myself. This is my pathetic circumstance that I'm no good in evolving emotionally. I never like you but I never despise you. But now, I hate myself because of how I can speak how lovely you are tonight and I am attracted in glances you make but I believe the alcohol is taking the best of me.

Let's stay this way.

I know we've met and seen each other countless of times and still no names are exchange until now. Just the two strangers in the neon lights with expressionless faces that smile, laugh, frown, and occasional sigh.

(Between these silent spaces of our conversation we scour the room for traces that may belong to us and maybe will connect us as if we have known each other in some other time. Until we consciously realize we're staring in each other's eyes, exhausted and breathing deeply against each other's air. )

The night has grown darker and the people around responded well to the escalating temperature. But not for the two us, we may not be as innocent to look at but our hearts can be as unaffected it can be because there is much more of a strong force that unusually binds us everytime we are together across this crowded room. We suffer along and that is true coz these we're not lies and we are not living in lies.

And this is how we apply what we learn in life—to play the game and be insensitive at the same time…but I don't think I'll last any longer.

P.S.

Tomorrow is another night. I haven't drunk enough and so you are. I would surely like to know your name before we say goodnight this time.

how cruel straight men can be

2007-03-07T01:46:00.000-08:00

On a valentines day,

i was going to work early in the morning, sumakay me ng jeep sympre since maaga pa po, sympre medyo groggy pa ko nun

so un nga,

may ksabay me 2 effems which i think are about to go to work or maybe they just left their call center jobs

tapos sa tabi ko may 1 guy dun which i think is a straight one na nakaglasses and really looks decent, looks like superman,

i find him interesting to be honest

tapos maya mya, nagulat kami kc bumaba sya bigla ng jeep

tapos inikutan nya ung pwesto dun malapit sa effem, ung effem is malakas ang pakiramdan feeling daw nya may galit c guy sa kanya so he switched from one end of the jeep to another, nung pumunta sa kbila c effem, umikot uli c guy, nung sa kabila, umikot uli c guy, tlagang sinusundan nya c effem sympre lahat kami sa jeep nagtataka kung bkt, kabado c effem, buti na lang nag go na, umalis na ung jeep,

after ilang blocks medyo napunta kami sa intersection so un bglang all of a sudden c eyeglasses decent looking guy is in another jeep pla, bumaba sya sa kabilang jeep, tapos dire- diretso sya dun sa jeep na sinasakyan namin, effem was really confuse tlga

tapos kumuha ung guy ng bato, binato nya tlga c effem, buti na lang tinamaan sa blikat lang thing is wla naman ginagwa c effem kay guy, ni hindi nya nga tinitingnan c guy, ni hindi nya flinifilirt or anything so bkt nya binato c effem

nakita ng mga mmda ung nangyari at dhl medyo maaga, kadarating lang ng mga pulis sympre nagsisigaw c effem so medyo nagkagulo, hinabol c guy di sya nahabol but his eyes were really blazing sa galit kay effem ang weird, kc bakit nya binato ung effem, i mean kung nalalaswaan sya dun sa guy eh di sna mas ok pa kung verbal lang pero hindi eh may physical abuse

naawa me dun sa effem kc di naman nya kasalanan na maging effem sobrang rude and weird nung guy na un considering wla tlga sa itsura cguro may bad experience sya sa effems at nung nkita nya c effem eh naalala nya un, pero kht na di nya pa rin dpat ginwa un, its unreasonable

what ive learned about this experience?

looks can be really really deceiving!

tsk tsk! pakshet!

kung ikaw nsa place ni effem ano gagawin mo?

ako sa sobrang gulat, too bad, wla me nagawa, naawa me sa effem, he was innocent,

is this a sign of discrimination?

tsk tsk grabe tlga

kaya minsan mas ok pa na u stick with a bisexual who is in touch with his feminine side kesa sa str8 eh

at least dun mas malaki possibility na di ka nya sasaktan physically

although minsan di rin,

sympre pwde ka pa rin saktan physically or one way to another but thats extreme na

this is abuse, i wont trust looks alone tlga

hayyyyyyyyy!!!!!!

sna di na to maulit sa ibng tao whether gay bi effem girl boy tibo lesbo faggot butch etc etc

'mild' jolt from Jostein and Darwin

2007-03-06T17:55:00.000-08:00

(note: this is the message i sent my friend darwin this morning)

choi,

thanks for that wonderful sharing about relating with parents. i have just finished a book last night from one of my favorite authors, Jostein Gaarder. the book is called The Orange Girl, which is about a dead dad's letter to his son (Georg) he made 11 years ago, a few days before the dad died.

the story tells of the love story of the dad and the Orange Girl, which happened to be Georg's Mom.

at the end of the story, Georg advises to get to know our parents more--specifically, their lives before they got married, and more importantly, how they got together.

i got teary-eyed with a lot of things Georg told me about relating with our parents, and i have realized there is not enough time to know a lot of people, and our parents, sometimes, are the least probable people we wanted to get to know.

thanks for that reminder, shall i say, a 'mild' jolt.

we pray for your aunt's wellness, if not faster recovery.

there's another very important thing the book taught me:

"there's a very special name for things that we don't expect to happen, they just do. this is called hope."

all in due time, God will put things into place.

have a great day!

top picks

2007-03-06T17:51:00.000-08:00

i am not running out of sensible blogs. im just so into digging music here and there and i just thought 'why not vandalize our fab shrine with my current album picks?'

who knows, you might actually find these interesting that you'll start your limewire engine running!

(in no particular order):

1) Dreamgirls Soundtrack - Beyonce Knowles, Jennifer Hudson, Anika Noni Rose, Jamie Foxx, Eddie Murphy, Keith Robinson, Sharon Leal

2) How to Save a Life - The Fray

3) 30 Seconds to Mars - 30 Seconds to Mars

4) A Beautiful Lie - 30 Seconds to Mars

5) A Fever You Can't Sweat - Panic! at the Disco

6) Bleach Soundtrack - Orange Range, Asterisk, Yui, Ichirin no Hana, Rie Fu

7) Armani Exchange - Mixed by Peter Rauhofen

8) Art of War - Bone Thugs 'n Harmony

9) At Worst: The Best of Culture Club - Boy George and the Culture Club

10) B-Day - Beyonce Knowles

11) Blueprints for the Black Market - Anberlin

12) Continuum - John Mayer

13) St. Elsewhere - Gnarls Barkley

14) CrazySexyCool - TLC

15) Dante's Cove Soundtrack - Composed by Eric Allaman

16) Latter Days Soundtrack - Nitta Whitaker, Toad the Wet Sprocket, Rebecca Jordan, Bobby Joyner

17) Demon Days - Gorillaz

18) Destiny Fulfilled - Destiny's Child

19) The Duchess - Fergie

20) Final Straw - Snow Patrol

21) Grey's Anatomy Soundtrack - Psapp, Snow Patrol, The Cardigans, Lisa Loeb, Merrick, Coldplay, Faders, Ivy, Joe Purdy, Joshua Radin, Landon Pigg, Sylvie Lewis

22) Undiscovered - James Morrison

23) The Beack Soundtrack - All Saints, Orbit, Richard Ashcroft, Asian Dub Foundation, Sugar Ray, Leftfield

24) Honey Soundtrack - Shawn Desman, Jada Kiss, Yolanda Adams, Tweet, Aaliyah

25) In My Own Words - Ne-Yo

26) Loose - Nelly Furtado

27) November's Chopin - Jay Chou

28) Spiceworld - Spice Girls

29) Supermodel of the World - RuPaul

30) Tattoo Colour - Tattoo Colour

you say: 'how could he possibly listen to all those songs?'

time management, baby. multitasking. binging.

go get some life!

get a life. hear music.

The Last Love Poem of an Insomniac

2007-02-28T20:45:00.000-08:00

Look at this world it is changing,
Faster than the snowflakes that dries in your hands and
Kisses that lost warmth, skin that can no longer feel
Writers dying, saying goodbye to love.

Look at my eyes, they are falling asleep,
But cannot be tucked in this poem of somebody else’s dream.
Blossoming someday until the senses recover,
The resurrection and embrace of this silly line of the poet.

Promise me the fence will never grow tall,
Cast the spell that can erase the ocean of its cloud,
But don’t show me the road to be taken.
I have my own way.
My love will seek you blind and hopeful.

So this last kiss will commence the change.
The end that truly ends and that means to end,
I wonder why we’re not crying though it is sadness that we exchange.

Ah yes I know now, the world is changing but love will remain the same. I love you.

I love you so much that I need this sleep.

Wings

2007-02-27T08:55:00.000-08:00

No, not the pantyliner brand that women use! Remember when we were kids and we would see cartoons or movies of people with wings and they were able to fly?! I've always fantasizd about flying, like growing wings and taking flight. Free from anything earthly, a little bit closer to heaven that usual. No bounds, no limits. The feeling that is somewhat similar when you swim only you ain't wet. wakekek

And since the dawn of digital photography and image editing, i have grown quite fond of putting my fantasies into something more visual and possibly tangible so that more people with the same surreal dream can appreciate it. Just here to share some of my winged works...

This one is inpired by the "fallen angel", a few years back i was so in touch with my dark side that it drove me to create depictions of it. here's another one from a more darker past that i am not proud of...

After my "enlightening" i shifted over to a more optimistic visualization of myself. A series of events in my life shed light on my dark persona and so i came up with these two from my angel series of last year...

This year beckons a new fresh set of art that should show a bright new outlook not just for me but for those who i inspire with my ideals and works. here's a couple of previews from my upcoming winged series for 2007...

This is a picture taken from the province of Quezon on one of the beaches that we went to. On top of one of the big rocks that we were able to climb up to after kayaking. there were two of us on that rock, if you have a good eye (which i doubt) wou'll see were i erased him from.lolz. **this is a hobby i do for my self gratification and for friends who appreciate my work.

are you gago or tanga?

2007-02-26T21:07:00.000-08:00

GAGO O TANGA? ALIN KA DITO?

Nakakatuwa naman ang mga nangyayari sa paligid. Magcha-chat ka.... maghahanap ng picture, ng web cam at kung anu ano pa. May mga magtatanong sayo ng mga bagay na hindi mo inaasahan, gaya ng age, sex, location, top, bottom, size ng titi, marunong ba tsumupa o hindi at kung anu-ano pa. Then hihingi ka naman ng picture niya. Siyempre kung pangit hindi ka na magrereply.... hindi mo na kakausapin...... bigla ka na lang mag lolog out. At kung cute naman siyempre.... kukunin mo yung cell number.... landline.... friendster....kung mayaman ba siya o hindi.... gaano kalaki ang pera mo sa International Bank and bank of America at sa Swiss bank.... (para may mapagkaperahan ka)..... pangalan... address.... iba pang web pics.... paboritong pagkain... color.... height.... weight..... at suking tindahan. Tapos, sasabihin mo kapag nag-uusap na kayo, hindi ka naman sa physical tumitingin.... kundi sa kalooban.. AHAHHAHAHAH……… HAAAAAAAALLLLEEEEEEEEERRRRRRR

Okay ka lang!?!?!?!? kung sa tingin mo ba kamukha ni Quasimodo o ni Rene Requiestas yang ka chat mo eh makikipag eb ka pa o kukunin mo yung cell number niya para i-text at tawagan siya.. Gagastos ka ba ng mahigit 30 pesos kada araw sa pag loload o bibili ka na lang ng suncell para matawagan din siya kung suncell nga sya....

Alam mo, sa tingin ko hindi mo yun gagawin. Ewan ko ba bakit marami pa ring tao ang nabubuhay sa litid ng pagnanasa na maari naman magparaos sa pamamagitan ni mariang palad na may halo sa konting imahinasyon.

Heto ka naman, lalapitan mo siya (yung cute ha hindi yung pangit) sasabihin mo, alam mo ang gaan ng loob ko sayo......... hmmmm pwede ba kitang maging baby... boyfriend.... lover.... maging tayo...... boo... honey...... papa.... jowa... papu... nanay… pangdisplay..... alila... bangko... sponsor o financer…. tatay ...ingkong..... parausan... at kung anu ano pa.

At kung nakuha mo na siya… sa una ay aalagaan…. Hanggang sa paparausan….. hanggang sa pandidisplay…. Hanggang sa mag-sawa… then go back to start sa pambibiktima at pambobola. Ano ba talaga ang hanap natin sa buhay? Aminin man natrin o hindi maraming tao na ganito ang naglipana sa paligid. Pagtapos maging akin ay kanya. Pagkatpos maging iyo ay akin. Saan ba talaga? ano ba talaga? paano ba talaga?

No wonder, kung halos walang naniniwala na magtatagal ang relasyon ng mga bisexuals, gays, at lesbians. Hindi ko naman nilalahat.. sabi ko lang naman halos eh. Wag kang magagalit ha.

Pero isipin mo.... pagkatapos nun, maaaring isa sa inyo ang umiyak... dahil sa pinaasa mo siya at pinaniwala. Isang buhay ang nasira kasi ang inakala niya ay totoo ka sa kanya. Isang nilalang na naman ang tinulak mong maging gaya mo... magrerebelde at gagawin din sa iba ang ginawa mo... hanggang sa paulit ulit na itong mangyayari para sa mga susunod pang mga silahista, bakla, at lesbianang maipapanganak sa mundo. Then sasabihin mo sa bandang huli na naghahanap ka ng seryoso? Na alam mong may sumeryoso sayo dati na hindi mo sineryoso dahil yung sineryoso mo noon ay hindi ka naman sineryoso. O kaya naman sadya ka lang talagang malibog na kulang na lang lahat ng silahista ay lagyan mo ng check sa kanang balikat para malaman mo kung dumaan na siya sayo o hindi pa.

Ewan ko ba kahit ako naguguluhan sa mga nangyayari. Aaminin ko minsan sa buhay ko ay ganito rin ang naiisip ko. Isa lang ang nasisiguro ko.... tapos na ako sa mga ganitong kalokohan. Sa maniwala ka man o hindi. Kahit papaano maghahanap at maghahanap ka rin ng pangmatagalan.

Ewan ko ba kung sadyang gago lang ang ilan sa atin dahil sa walang sawang pagdilig sa mga bagong binhing naglilitawan o sadyang tanga lang dahil hindi na natin nakikita kung sino ba talaga ang dapat nating minahal at hindi na pinakawalan pa.

Hanggang kailan ka ganyan? Gago lang ba talaga tayo kasi malibog O tanga kasi hindi natin alam ang ating ginagawa? Hindi naman kaya gago ka kasi sinabi mong mayaman ka? O kaya naman nagawa ka niyang tanga dahil heto ka at nagpapagamit. Baka naman gago ka lang kasi tanga ka.... o talagang tanga ka kaya naman nagagago ka. Ang gago mo kasi tanga ka. Ang tanga mo kasi nagpapagago ka sa mga kapwa mo tanga at gago.

Sa totoo lang nagpapaalipin ka sa sarili mong katangahan at kagaguhan. Naghahanap ka ng meron ka dati na ngayon ay wala na. Hirap maging tanga sa gagong mundo. At mahirap mabuhay na gago sa tangang mundo. Hay naku ang daming gago at tanga.

Madaming may mga mata ngunit kakaunti lang ang nakakakita. Madaming may nakikita pero madaming bulag dahil sa nakikita..... maraming may tainga pero alang marinig.... madaming nakakapagsalita pero isa ka sa mga nanahimik .... buti pa ang bulag......... hindi gago at hindi tanga sa nakikita.......... buti pa ang bingi hindi bingi sa mga bagay na dapat maintindihan at marinig......... malakas ang loob ng mga pipi kasi nasasabi nila na hindi sila gago at tanga..........

Sino ba talaga ang tunay na gago at tanga? Hala ka baka naman gago ka na nga, tanga pa. Huwag kang mag-alala hindi ka naman nag-iisa. Maraming katulad mong gago na tanga pa…. o tanga dahil sa gago sila.... o ako ang gago at tanga dahil ako lang ang nakaisip ng mga ganitong bagay.

Sorry ha....... nagawa ko kasi ito dahil madaming Gago at Tanga....

(my good friend paolo from g4m sent me this. whoever made this eloquent musings, thank you! please let us know you...)

Red Squared

2007-02-25T20:59:00.000-08:00

Using wikimapia, I discovered some of the spots where people like us often hang out. Please take note that I've never been to most of these places, and the reason I found them in the map is because of some leads that I've heard from people who have already been there before.

Check them out and tell me, if these cyberslackershave pinpointed the official cruising places correctly.

Farenheit Cafe and Fitness Center, E. Rodriguez, Quezon City

Palawan Bar I, Cubao, Quezon City

Government, Makati Avenue, Makati City

Epitome Club, Malate, Manila

BED, Rainbow Project, Orosa Courtyard, Malate, Manila

Club Bath, Pasay City

topic: dyingYOUNG has HIV, do you know him

2007-02-24T01:17:00.000-08:00

Follow up: HONEYBLAST [msg]
24 Feb 2007, 16:56

hindi ka ba mamamatay?
kailan pa bro?

wag ka naman maghasik ng lagim ha?
pls lang.

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"REASON IS THE GREATEST DISCOVERY EVER MADE BY MAN. YET IT IS THE LEAST USED, NO WONDER REASONABLE MEN END UP MISERABLE."--James Jones, From Here to Eternity

Stupid people. You can find lots of them in g4m.

2007-02-22T06:36:00.000-08:00

Jump - Madonna

There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that I wait, the more time that I waste

I havn't got much time to waste
It's time to make my way
I'm not afraid of what I'll face
But I'm afraid to stay
I'm going down my road and I can make it alone
All work and no fighting
I'll find a place on my own

[Chorus]
Are you ready to jump
Get ready to jump
Don't ever look back oh baby
Yes, I'm ready to jump
Just take my hand
get ready to jump

We learned out lesson from the start
My sisters and me
The only thing you can depend on
Is your family
Life's gonna drop you down like a limb from a tree
It sways and it swings and it bends until it makes you see

[Chorus]

Are you ready?

There's only so much you can learn in one place
The more that you wait
The more time that you waste

All work and no fighting
I'll find a place on my own

It sways and it swings and it bends until you make it your own

I can make it alone [repeat]
(my sisters and me)

[Chorus X2]

I'll never love this way again...

2007-02-21T13:09:00.000-08:00

it all happened so fast it seemed like a dream, but when i felt that the tears were getting my pillow and fingers wet and too much sobbing made my nose runny, i got the clue that it was no dream. the pain in my chest made me sure that it was real and that he was indeed going to break up with me.

imagine a quiet thursday night, lounging in your living room, your PC on and downloading stuff, your razor wails a text message alert, you pick it up and read. you havent reached the end of the message when time suddenly feels frozen and tears begin to form, he's breaking up with you. and via text. you hurriedly collect your thoughts and gather composure to reply; clarify if this was a bad joke. i checked the calendar and it aint no april fool's day. its almost christmas and here is your loved one giving you feelings that you are familiar with...being left alone. text messages fly left and right. each one feels like a powerful blow to your chest, dealing pain and loss of strength. weakened you go to your bed, its now the middle of the night. nothing is stirring. silence is deafening. memories of him rush into your head, like a cheesy flashback from a movie, happy and sad moments scurry into your brain making breathing a real challenge. you fall asleep crying.

its a li'l past 9 in the morning and you wake up to this familiar voice calling out your name. its him! by your window. you run towards the door bearing questions: was i just dreaming last night? is he here like he normally is on a weekend? does he know what is happening? you open the door, his face is a refreshing sight from last night's crying fit. his face glowing, his big black eyes staring at me as he waited to be let in, you go to the bedroom, he sits casually on the side as you lay down again to relax from your abrupt awakening. no hi's and no hello's. he places an unfamiliar shoe box on the bed and says:

"this is everything you gave me. i even kept the bus tickets, the receipts from all the places we ate at, price tags of stuff we bought together. everything i secretly took and hid to remind me of the times we spent together. there is one item there that is very important, the gate pass to the resort where i first met you. please keep them! its not that i wanna forget everything that happened. i just don't wanna cling to things that will make me cry when i see them. i still love you but i have to leave you..."

you are petrified and speechless. no voice comes out when you try to speak. everything before this moment is real! he is really breaking up with you. you try reason with him and find out the real reason for all of this. hours pass and more tears fall and sink into a pillow you are huging so tightly. he tries desperately to keep a straight face, no tears, he cracks jokes, he continually avoids eye contact...

fate decides to give your love one more chance, after asking him the same series of questions again and again and keep teeling him: "ill respect your decision because i trust and love you but know this, it does not matter how long it takes, once go out that door, ill be sitting by it waiting for the time you come back to me. and when you do, you will see that nothing has changed and that i will love you forever. you may ask me to do anything for you or even leave you, but please don't ever ask me to stop loving you coz that is one thing i am sure i cannot give you..." you get through and he breaks into tears, you reach for his hand and he reaches back. you hold hands and stare at each other with swollen teary eyes. silence ensues. he says: "im sorry, i take it back.i love you and i really can't leave you!" your face dripping with tears...you yield a smile and you rush to hug him like this was the last day on earth. time feels like it stopped.
the two of you agree to make things better and tackle hurdles in life together, stumble together, and pick up each other when we do fall. tears flowed, pain has been inflicted, apologies have been accepted, minds are clear, both guilt free, love overpowers and the two of you move on...HAPPY.

-i'm very private with my love life, but this is one part of it that I feel i must share...

Asan ka na?

2007-02-21T13:03:00.000-08:00

ako natural lang, pwedeng sigang maton o malandi, kahit ano.

makikipaghalikan ako sa iyo in public.
pero okay lang din kung ayaw mo.
ayos na ayos na ko sa akbay o simpleng chansing.

kapag nagsasalita ka, makikinig ako, tapos titingnan kita sa mata,
para alam mo na sa iyo lang ako nakikinig.
hindi tayo mauubusanng pag-uusapan. ultimo buhok sa kili-kili ng labandera ng kapitbahay natin pwede nating pagdebatihan-- in immaculate english...
(i tell ye, her follical projections were plucked!!!...nay, sweet sir, her pubescent manifests have been shaved!!!)

gusto ko minsan na may moments na mas maarte ka pa sa akin. kahit kapag tayong dalawa lang.

pero ang pinaka gusto ko, kapag naghahawakan tayo ng kamay sa ilalim ng lamesa. at dahan-dahan mong hinihimas ang aking palad ng iyong mga daliri. at magpapatay-malisya tayo, para hindi halata.

o anong petsa ka ba darating?!

--i found this on one of the G4M profiles i was readin' long ago. i kept a copy. thought 'twas cute.

Arkinscent

2007-02-20T20:58:00.000-08:00

Conrad was a big man, and he appeared unchanged after three years. He grabbed me on my right hand and forced me to salute his Chancellor.

“No!” I resisted.

Suddenly a Seeder Plane descended on Raja. The hot air coming from its engine swept all the dust. All of this dirt seemed attracted to my perspiration and blood.

A clean and neat young man, about my age came, boarding off the aircraft. He was wearing military uniforms and came rushing forward to the chancellor. He shamed my appearance.

Conrad stopped. His left hand still halfway in trying to make me salute the Chancellor. He was looking intently at me; I was looking in the black glove at my right hand. He tried to remove it. I clenched my fist. He was doing it as discreetly as possible. Then he jabbed me silently, but he didn’t try to remove the glove.

The young soldier saluted the general, and then gave him a sheet of folded red paper—the official letters of the Libra. Then the general gave the young man permission to leave, but before he could leave, he had a chance to see their new prisoner. I tried to hide in my swollen flesh, bloody face and hair, and broken skin, not to mention the rust and dirt I newly accumulated. From unusual grim he always expressed in front of their prisoners, he became excited. I was so embarrass he recognized me. He greeted me involuntarily.

“Hey.” He said gladly to me.

Even this guy called me HEY. Next time I’ll start writing my name with H instead of A if ever I’ll survive, I promised that. At least he was cheerful to see me. But I didn’t give him any hint that I was really somebody he knew. But three years wasn’t too long. My attention from the young man broke when the Chancellor suddenly looked at me after reading the paper. It was the same wrath I’ve seen before.

“You helped the Commonwealth activate the Pantallassa and you joined the R. A. S. C! You crazy bastard!”

Bastard? I like to laugh about it, how can I be a bastard?—anyway I guess this guy need some major memory recall. And to answer his questions, I will both confirmed and denied them but it will be ineffective. Okay, so I just add it to my infamous “list.” Beside he took a great of effort to find me after all.

I felt the Raja tilted even more. Conrad stabilized his balance.

I took my chances and tried to escape.

To the shock of everybody, I amputated his both hands and to my absolution.
Conrad was agonizing on the floor with blood flowing mercilessly from his limbs, squirming in pain, and his scream competed against the deafening blasts happening simultaneously.

The Chancellor looked at me as if he will kill me in front of his son, Yttrob, the young man who gave the bad news to him. He tried it to me once, also three years ago.

I looked at Yttrob with sad eyes. “I am sorry it had come to this.” Conrad took care of him after his mother died.

I ran away and then I bound into the waters. Yttrob, my brother was calling out my name, and our father was cursing me with finest words known to complement an abominable son.

I felt the gravity as if it wasn’t working on me, and then I saw steel slugs. Most of them missed me, but a few exited thru my body, forcing their way through the flesh and one shoved in the heart; breaking vessels and valves, wiping out hope and faith. Blood fell and flown animated almost like an angry rain. I don’t know who shot me, but would it matter to the sharks and scavengers of the ocean?

Finally the tears in my eyes escaped, flowing madly around my face, delighted to embrace the ocean, where they knew they should belong, and not in my eyes.

And I saw Rossetti always staring at the sky, at the sun that can blind. I want to tell her that sometimes, some of our dreams in order to come true must be nightmares to live by. I learned that too late a long time ago. I hoped it would not happen to her. That was why I start with that silly question that afternoon we separated ways though we never bade each other goodbye. She was right about loneliness but I had to ask her something. It is possible loneliness is a promise broken long ago? Because that one I don’t know. Even in death I am not so sure, why?

I thought I learned a long time ago how to die and accept it and that what I still cannot comprehend is how to accept life. Damn... Oh God how come I fail in both? Where would I go?

Finally, the deep blue sea swallowed me eager to protect me against the laughter of angels, of devils, and of men. They were laughing because I will finally die worthlessly.

[fiction:draft:excerpt: my first attempt of using third person, then I switch to 1st person in the middle of the story. Arkinscent is the name of the guy who died.]

My Very First Man To Man Encounter

2007-02-17T18:46:00.000-08:00

February 15, 2002

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Galing ako sa meeting ng org ko noon. Palibhasa'y isang linggo na lang at campus elections na, ngarag lahat ng tao sa partido. Buti na lang at graduating na ako ng mga panahong yun kaya madali lang para sa akin ang pumuslit at gumawa ng alibi, sakaling tamarin akong makisama sa kanila.

Ilang linggo bago mangyari ang gabing yun, natanggap ko na sa sarili ko na hindi talaga ako straight. Sa wakas, matatapos na ang mga umagang pinapaso ko ang aking daliri upang ipaalala sa sarili ko na hindi ako maaring maging bading. Matatapos na rin ang mga dapithapong nilulusob ko ang Quiapo, pakunwaring bibili ng pirated na XXX sabay magprepretend na kasama sa mga bibilihin ko eh yung mga pinakabago nilang M2M na nakadisplay rin sa mga dingding ng tindahan nila.

Yun GEB na yun ang gabi ng aking paglaya.

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Sa tulong ng Pinoyexchange, may nadiskubre akong forum kung saan nagkukumpulan ang mga bisexual na katulad ko noon. Base sa mga post nila, tagos hanggang buto ko ang pangungulila at pagkatakot na nararamdaman nila. Tuwang tuwa ako sa kaisipang, hindi pala ako nag-iisa. Na marami pala ang katulad ko ang naghahanap ng uunawa sa kanilang pagkatao. Yun nga lang, hindi ko alam kung gaano ba sila katotoo sa mga sinasabi nila. Noong mga panahon kasing yun, wala pa sa mindset ko na pwede mong sabihing bisexual ka, pero sabog sabog naman ang pagiging effem mo.

Hindi ko alam na sa mundo ng mga bading, meron palang division na namamagitan sa mga paminta at tukling.

Maghahatinggabi nang makarating ako sa Malate. Sabi ng organizer, nandun daw sila sa bar na ang pangalan ay La Dida. Nung una parang balewala lang sakin ang lahat. Tutal, may kasama rin naman silang mga lesbyana kaya mahuli man ako ng kung sinuman galing sa aking campus, parang nakipagbonding lang ako sa mga coed kong high school friends.

Umakyat ako ng second floor upang kitain sila. Tanda ko pa nun na ang daming tao. May mga babae na feminate, meron rin namang tomboy na mukhang lalaki. Merong mga grupo ng lalaki dun na akala mo ay astigin na nakikipag-inuman lang. Matapos ang maraming taon, naliwanagan rin ako na lahat pala yun hindi straight katulad ko.

At dahil masyadong maingay sa bar na yun nang dumating ako, pumasok ako sa isa sa mga bathrooms upang tawagan ang organizer. Yun pala nalampasan ko na sila.

Hindi ko inaasahan na yung grupo ng mga lalaki't babaeng maiingay at naghaharutan ang grupong kikitain ko.

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My first encounter was a culture shock.

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I went to the GEB expecting that I would meet people who were straight-acting like me. But they were fine nonetheless. Being a member of a political party taught me to respect personal differences, even if the person you are talking to is a screaming diva.

What caught my initial attention are the ladies who were with us. I thought that they were straight since they acted more girly than those I hanged out in school. It turned out that the gorgeous ladies who are with us were all lesbians. Before that, I thought lesbians were only reserved for those in the tom-boy category.

I have already forgotten how many people were there during that GEB. I have also forgotten how many bottles of beer I consumed or how many people I have talked to during that evening. But one thing I still remember until now is the 18-year old chinito guy who was seated alone with them. He was extremely lonely that night and since no one would talk to him, I just decided to hang-out with him and spend the rest of the night knowing more about his life.

It was the year Joyrise became a club favorite.

Five years ago, that Grand Eye Ball was the reason why I never left Malate ever since.

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Past Forward:

The chinito guy and I became textmates. When I returned to the meeting that early morning, I realized that I liked him and he overturned my feelings for several weeks after that fateful meet up. That weekend, I asked him if we could meet somewhere near his place. During those early times, hanging out in some guy's place with us together and alone DOESN't ring a different tune to me.

And it was that hang-out in his place that got me my first man to man make out kiss. It turns out that he liked me as well. Too bad, I was too nervous when we did that, and it turned him off. I swear, if my knowledge in the arts of pleasure during those days was as advanced as it is today, things would have been very different.

I would have eaten him alive.

And imagine doing those things behind my ex-girlfriend's back...

It turns out, someone from the GEB likes the chinito guy as well. Unfortunately, I was more aggresive than him so I got my prize, even if I just enjoyed a slice of it.

A week after, I found out that the more "straight-acting" guys who belonged to the same thread conducts their own GEB's too. It was the faction where I met the guys who would become my future tropa. For the first time after my first meet up with bisexuals, I've realized that you can be a bisexual without acting too effeminate because of that faction.

That same week, the other guy found out that I was fishing his bet. For a brief moment, it sparked a cold conflict between us. Good thing, many folks from the thread never took sides. Eventually we decided to patch our differences and this other guy that we both liked found another eyecandy.

However, despite those concessions, I remained madly infatuated with the chinito guy for weeks.

During our next GEB, which was a month after the first one. I was already comfortable with everyone. At the same time, my gaydar was already tuned to pinpoint non-straights from the straight people.

That same gaydar detected someone, who would eventually become my sidekick until now.

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Ika-apat na linggo matapos ang una kong Grand Eyeball.
Na-meet ko si parekoy*.
Kasama pa ang kanyang dating boyfriend.

*parekoy - bestfriend, see mugenblog for more entries about this guy.

Equus

2007-02-17T06:25:00.000-08:00

Feast your eyes on Daniel Radcliffe

Musings of a Chronic Liar

2007-02-16T08:27:00.000-08:00

Look deeper into my eyes
And tell me a string of lies.
Say everything is fine
and that you will be mine.

Has it ever occurred to you that someone, somewhere knows something you don't and they're having a good time at your expense?

Call it conspiracy theory or whatnot but I have always had the nagging feeling that shaving creams and/or after-shave lotions might have hair growth stimulants. If it were so, there is nothing we consumers could do about it since, after all, they never were supposed to inhibit hair growth nor did they advertise doing so. Still, it is a pretty darned smart way to ensure that their customers will keep on buying their products. To us, they are just implements to an eternal ritual against something we, as humans, have deemed inescapable: shaving. To them, they are almost a self-sustaining investment.

How about those mold and mildew cleaners? What if each droplet of acidic liquid poured onto the grout between ceramic tiles contained a certain chemical, which, when decayed, encourages more fungal growth? The companies selling these cleaners, too, did not advertise retarding mold and mildew proliferation. They were supposed to clean but not keep your tiles clean. If these indeed contained such chemicals, we'd be in a never-ending battle against fungus.

Another one I have had the luxury to experience: anti-dandruff shampoo. So long as I keep on using it, I don't get flaky scalp; it must have some strong chemicals for even its vapors sting my eyes. However, when I discontinue usage, I get a dandruff boom. Does it also have nice ingredients that decay into bad ones?

Ahh, the refined art of subterfuge. Technically, the makers of the three products never lied to us; they just happened to omit certain facts from the mass media. Given that I, too, enjoy "lying" to others, I'm beginning to wonder if any of those people might be my kin.

Pasas...

2007-02-15T19:55:00.000-08:00

It is nearly a revealing fact, almost disturbing. I just learned about this last February 14 when I dropped by in Megamall (around 6:30 - 7 PM, 2nd Flr, Building B):

(...ahh...my conscience is groping my neck,
claws clenched, stabbing right thru my throat:
trying hard to stop me to spill this truth....)

(Drum roll please!)

“I’VE NEVER SEEN SEVERAL GUYS SIMULTANEOUSLY BRUSHING THEIR TEETH (SO CLINICALLY GRAPHIC IT IS AMUSING, TWO THUMBS UP!) INSIDE THE MEN’S ROOM.”

Whoa! He he he. (Thanks sa drum roll.)

(...my conscience finaly let go of me,
I sense his complete retirement
and then sabay sabi nung kupal,
"Inggit ka lang!"
Ngek. "Hindi ah!" ..)

I forgot about this event in my personal blog coz a helluva of things had happened. Since I promised something soda, I rathered post it in United. Have a great weekends.

february love

2007-02-15T02:29:00.000-08:00

i stopped blogging (i.e., recording my experiences) roughly a month ago, because of two reasons. one was because of this boy who made me realize how transient things truly are (and who i don't want to talk about any further), and the other one was because i rediscovered a long forgotten passion.

i've been writing poetry since highschool, as i remember. my poems are garbage, of course, but they've always liberated me in one way or another. i found many disposable, (but) valued little details in my life - details that can easily get erased in highly-edited blog posts - recyclable and recycled in my poems.

poems were my personal, handy mementos of an otherwise would-be forgotten past, way before the blog thing arrived. i traded it off for the latter, obviously, for a couple of years.

but now, i'm back, and it feels so damn good. i'm back to believing that there's nothing better than creating absolutely crappy poetry.

and it's funky to add that this rekindling started just a couple of weeks ago, just this february. probably, this is a sour love life transformed: devoid of men, i retorted by resorting to my poems for a cuddle.

now, before the introduction becomes four times longer than the main deal, i present to you, one of my poems:

panandalian
(para kay j.)

tulog ang talinhaga
dito sa madilim na parte
ng paslit na pagnanasa. iisa lamang
ang kahulugan ng nakapatong
na kamay ko sa nahihiyang dulo
ng hita mo, o ng kaunting pisil sa iyong akbay.
subukan man nating gawing metaporikal
ang bawat galaw, pareho nating alam
na paghalik ang paghalik mo sa aking kamay.
na kapag sinabi kong mahal kita,
susuklian mo ng mahal mo din ako,
at wagas tayong magmamahalan habang buhay
ang tagay ng beer.

Outside Looking In

2007-02-14T16:32:00.000-08:00

Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the Milky Way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated :::Drops of Jupiter By Trains:::

The night had come stolen, later broken by the softest smile on his face. I was taken out of deliverance that I can no longer continue. The seconds were spent into fragments of inspiration I held sacred before.

It was one of lazy afternoons I always have and probably kept very special in my own silly ways. The 4’oclock sun was unforgiving compared to my slow uncalculated steps I made on the concrete pathway. Yes, I was alone and I didn’t know if I was reminiscing or daydreaming but the only thing I was sure of was that I wasn’t lonely or compelled to be cruel to myself that day.
Then he knocked me in a pleasant surprise almost an answered prayer I never knew I uttered every night. I was always forgetful and the so called love was not on my side ever since, for I never believed in it. So I guess—if I was still privileged to guess that it was not love at first sight anyhow. I was glad of it.

Time was mine and all logic won’t fall apart. This was the course I follow so well and because of this virtue I felt terrified. Thoughts of losing someone and be driven into complications was not worth my ego. I was happy to be me, myself, and I.

He gave me roses but I didn’t--. I sighed and said his eyes were dreamy. He dedicated a poem for me and I didn’t--. I never smile back but I mentioned to him that poems were for dead lovers. He cried when I knew should be breaking down but I wasn’t. I’ve told everyone he was giving me the creeps.

Before, I’ve always known how things should work or which could be better but it turned out my heart and soul wasn’t as comprehending as much as my head does.
With the gentlest hand that ever touched my face he revealed the rest to me and asked him with utmost concern the thing I never said to anyone before: Would it be fair?

Yes he whispered.

…and suddenly love was a crime. It was my best.
Passion after passion made the missing gaps of my life eternally found and burning. Or maybe I wasn’t really aware of what I was really missing—for the first time the restless heart found its place in him. I looked at the palms of my hand after the solace of the night; he traced the lines and said in my ears it was destiny.

Another kiss, another time to be one.

The dawn had arrived and the morning sky crushed me along with the same smile of hims still imprinted in my head. I was torn out of freedom if there’s a need for me to be myself again. It lasted longer than a moment.

Now, I was running away from it like thunderstorms were chasing me. It happened and I was in it what I’ve made others felt before. But this time there were no screams, no slamming doors, and no packed clothes.

It is supposed to be my game—my only and favorite game. Never have I expected someone could bend the rules and run it on me. I don’t know if I ought to learn the things at the end of the story, but they call it regret—to my surprise. Sometimes the only thing I am searching for my entire life is the one thing I am always afraid of.

And tell me, did Venus blow your mind:::Drops of Jupiter by Trains:::

NOTES:

[Edited. It is a work of fiction years ago. I am sort of visionary, I am so scared now I gotta quit writing in first person.]

[It applies to love in particular pero this time and life in general (so much about love that I don't wanna talk about it). Yesterday was Valentine’s Day, I was hanging around in Informatics Megamall after work, I saw the girl who slapped me last year May 24, 2006. It was my birthday that day, also in front of Informatics, in full glory of all mall goers. No, she was not my ex. Just an indirect casualty of my recklessness with words. Seeing her again make me scared. I thought I recovered, but I was traumatized pala. What a Valentine’s Day to me. Pero that’s life eh. Uhmm ok lang...kasi I know most people are afraid of truth, ayaw nila sa itsura ng pangit na katotohanan. Pero ito mas masakit: ala pa kaming sueldo..bukas pa, Friday. Tapos minus pa ko four days.]

2007-02-13T07:15:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentine's Day Everyone!

Stormwater Drain (Formerly titled Letting Go as An Art Perfected By Me)

2007-02-12T19:11:00.000-08:00

(written Tuesday, January 16, 2006 10:59 AM, Makati City)
(written hours after our last meeting that early morning)
(Edited)

I just thought letting go, the art, I have perfected this morning.

Nothing is perfect. It was the right thing to do and I felt so right but now I am so empty. How could you feel love and it is aching inside? How could you feel thankful and yet not bitter? Saying goodbye was easy, letting go itself is kindness on my part. Friendship is a gift but it is not an immediate substitute to affection, friends for now but not now, later for sure.

Love, I learned can be felt alone, the intimate and passionate one. It is love in its true and raw form. Love exists. However the experience between the two people will be different. When it does, when two people experience the same thing in the same moment, in the same space, then the kiss is perfect…the experience of love is perfect—the sad thing about the best thing in life, nothing last forever, even this perfect experience.

I said goodbye, I promised to be kind to myself by saying goodbye. Hurting is not part of my dream, my resistance was in vain, the battle and the war have been already lost. But there is no conflict except desires melting, dreams fading, and memories refreshing itself in every cells until the so called "time heal wounds" have taken effect. I am recovering not from the heart break but the pieces, fitting them together, until it will be once more ideal.

Right now I have a question, an inquiry, how do you really measure love? By the time? Or by the sacrifices made? Or by the intensity of the feeling? I cannot answer to that. But what is essential is the fact of love and loving, although it is an affection felt by a single person alone and not by two people.

I will keep it as a memory, I don't know if I gonna recall it later, coz it is happening right now, this soon. I know it is unfair and unkind on my part but I believe it is a way of picking up the pieces. Nothing really went wrong but the circumstances as I have said were not on my side. Life is still unfair. But being unfair is not bad, it is not just the proper or should I say the real time. I have made my love so real, to the extreme extent it could kill me, luckily it didn't happened. I don't want to kill myself for love but I want to die for love or loving someone.

Why did I say goodbye although deep inside I am aching, crying for acknowledgement that I am capable of love. I said goodbye because of impressions. The moment I saw him, it was so magical that "lost" is the perfect description. Suddenly life, the world was perfect. It was a first impression. But first impression was hard to maintain in the next hours or in the coming days but love keep me enchanted. And I’ve learned too that the last impression we made was the only thing that marks in the people's brain for so long as if it is the only sensible thing to remember. I want our goodbye cool and not as passionate as the first impression. Why? Because after all the love had gone, all will be left are memories to inspire e to love again somebody as good as this…

To forget the pain, although it was part of the picture I won't deny.

Finally I am stepping clear out of it, yes I was hoping he will come back, but time or somebody and myself, sooner or later will diminished this flame away. I know love is not the only virtue that keeps the world revolving, why do you think we are apart because I believe in honesty, I uphold them against the love I been waiting for. Love has a pretty face, a flaming kiss, and insane desire. Truth and honesty, meanwhile, are monsters. Love didn’t make me happy or right. Honesty and truth didn’t too. Maybe for now, I don't need the result coz i don't know how to clean my hands. But a choice had been made.

Letting go is not perfect. But something got to give. It is not really about letting go but learning the hard way.

[It seems improper to post consecutively considering this is not my blog. My apology, I can't help it. I'm so sorry for this is an recycled entry. Tomorrow is Valentine's Day. Tomorrow I'll be having my version of stand alone complex: i'll wake up, i'll go to work, i'll go home, i'll sleep...senti mode ang kupal. Next time probably not tomorrow or the next day, i'll try to publish something tutyy fruity and light.]